Life is Waiting

On December 3rd I will tell the world that I officially know what I want to do.
On that day a lot more opportunities will open up,
And some people will start taking me more seriously.

Today is the day I have my last class for a week.
It doesn't mean the end of work or of life,
But I can finally rest my brain.

Tomorrow I have a day off in Minneapolis.
This is exciting.
I love my new home.

Thursday is Thanksgiving with my family.
I don't quite feel like we have much in common
But I still love and enjoy them.

Psychology tells me personality is mostly genetic,
I don't believe that with a lot of my characteristics,
But I also don't know where my personality came from.

27 Days until this Semester is over.
I'm really glad.
This semester was filled with plenty of unappreciated work.

Next semester will hopefully be what I want it to be.
I sign up for classes late so that might not happen,
But I'm optimistic.

I've seen beautiful film and beautiful art the past 2 days.
I want the rest of my life to be filled with such occasions
As well as lots of traveling and adventure.

That's all I really expect out of my life.

Goodbye. Don't fail.

Voy a sacar una A en mi examen de Espanol 1003.

The Struggle with Life

Dear Reader,

The end is drawing near.
I've held on stong for this long,
And will continue to persevere.

Grasping the straggling strings
On the neverending unwinding rope,
With the tips of my fingers.

Reaching one arm above the next,
In the struggle to make it to the top,
Or even just to survive.

Some others have made it,
The rest have fallen down
Into the dark valley below.

The damp soil rubs against my knees
Smearing my legs in cold dirt
As I kick to get a better hold.

The rocks pierce my feet
And the blood drips off to a place unknown
Where the rest have gone.

I close my eyes
Wanting nothing more than a rest from the struggle
Just a moment to take a deep breath.

As I make my way to the top
With my muscles sore and throbbing
Sweat drips from my brow and crawls down my face.

Minutes pass and I continue to struggle,
Anticipating the moment when one way or the other,
I will be put to rest and held in the arms of relaxation.



The semester is almost over.
Life is loved.
Times are tough.

A Poem Entitled Untitled Poem

I don't know or understand a lot of things,
But there are some that I do.

I can't possibly enjoy ever second in life,
But I choose to enjoy as many as possible.

I can't possibly know where my life is headed,
But I know it will be beautiful.

Some things aren't meant to be,
But some things are.

My dreams have fallen for a man whose name I do not know,
And I'm certain I'll never ask what it is
Even though you are just an arms reach twice every week.

My friend, I'll be with you until the end of time,
Knowing very well I can be replaced.

My friend, you'll be with me forever and ever,
Knowing very well I might change my mind.

It's amazing how hard it can be to say something,
Even though you want to say it so bad.

Rawwrrrhhh

Fact: My title has changed.
Fact: I simply wanted to change the font color so you could read it,
Fact: But it wouldn't let me do that.
Fact: So now my title is "Ninja See....Ninja Don't"
Fact: Clever, Lame, and Funny is what I'm going for...
Fact: I'll probably only get one of those three though.

Hecho: I'm going to Venezuela this summer.
Hecho: I am a very happy person and have completely developed a sense of balance...
except for diet and exercise as of this moment...
Hecho: I'm saving that for next semester.

I wish I knew if you existed.
I've always had my doubts.

Seriously: Now please, stop your creeping and get on with your life.
Your productivity is obviously not where it should be.

O O
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It makes me sad no matter what I do...
His mustache won't line up with his face.
This is not a metaphor...
It's true.

O O
""""

FACT:...that doesn't work either.

Where Is Home?

It's been a long time since I cried.
I don't like how people expect so much out of me.
I wish I could focus all my energy on one thing, but the world won't allow that.
Right now I wish I had someone with arms I could cry into...
I don't want someone to talk to or someone to apologize for my own feelings...
I'm beginning to wonder if coming home this weekend will really be as epic as I had hoped.
My mom is already frustrating me and not understanding anything.
Meaningless events have already been blown into world extravaganzas...
I wish you could hold a mirror to someone's face and show them how ridiculous they are.
There are so many ridiculous people in this world.
And, the sad thing is they will never know how ridiculous they are.
I have so much to do tonight, but my emotions won't let me do anything but think.
A recent realization is also that I want a relationship,
But I find that idea impossible because for it to be worth it I would have to find this guy that probably doesn't even exist.
Recently if I had Esteban's number I would have called him (just to talk of course...I know we aren't getting back together).
It's probably a good thing I don't have it.
I don't want to end up saying things I don't mean just because I'm a little sad.
I feel like throwing up, yet also feel like eatting.
I hate being vulnerable.
But, it's been so long since I've felt like this that it doesn't really matter to me.
I don't care if you know how I feel...even though you can't possibly know everything.
I feel a little better now after listening to angry music and typing this.
I will survive.
And now I will put on my smile and go read...
Because that's just how it works.

Ze Week-End

I've enjoyed this weekend so much.
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-I've met cool new people.
One of them I will probably spending a great deal of time with and he also lives in my dorm so it's convenient.
-I had delicious delicious French food.
Cheeses, Fruits, Delicious Bread, Fondue with Mushrooms, Bread, and Apples, French French Fries (called Pommes Frites), and amazing lemonade and probably more that I can't remember...all of it was presented really fancy.
-Saw a crap ton of movies.
Funny Games, Heavyweights, Beauty and the Beast, Moulin Rouge, and lots of episiodes of Will & Grace
-Went to dairy queen really late.
-Had a sleepover in my dorm.
-Got up for brunch at 1:20.
-Walked to the Walker...
My legs killed and I had blisters, but we gave this guy an amazing tour of Minneapolis and had lots of fun doing so.
-Watched Andrew almost get raped...which was really freaky, but an interesting story.
-Watched the very original French Beauty and the Beast...which is very different from the Disney, and very entertaining...I want to see it again because I fell asleep during part of the ending because of lack of sleep.
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Today the weather is crappy and by that I mean cloudy.
I did terrible on a French test I actually thought I did well on besides one little part...I don't understand and I'm hoping she made a mistake because seriously I knew my shit and didn't deserve a C...and if I got it, I guess my test average with the C included is still a strong B...so I'll get over it.
I really want to see the dance thing at Northrop on November 12th. I'll go with someone for sure.
I don't want this weekend of craziness to ever end. I do want a little sleep though...tonight I must go to bed before 5...otherwise death will be upon me.
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I miss you.
Greatly.

Things of Humor

Bonjour dearest friend.
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I am feeling about every emotion ever, except for saddness because it's pretty much the lamest emotion to ever be invented. Humor would be the one noun that I would use to describe my mood today...one might even go as far to use the adjective humourous to describe my mood, but I find that it looks awkward so I don't use it too often.
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Today many things of humor happend...nothing amazing, but definately mentionable. First of all, when waiting to cross the crosswalk I had a bike stop and wave me across then wait for me to get to the other side of the crosswalk...I was really confused by this, but it was a super nice gesture that made my day.
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Later I was going to walk to Middlebrook and I noticed the Bridge Connector was waiting in it's usual location. I thought I would finally take advantage of this beautiful mode of transportation so I started speed walking to the point of my legs aching and the stuff in my backpack making a weird noise with every step...pretty sure my backpack was out of breath. Once I entered the bus I sat down and waited for another 10 minutes for it to take off. I felt a little ridiculoso, but it was still faster.
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After lunch I noticed that someone had spilled Jello, stepped in it, then walked away leaving a clear footprint of jello stuff. Someone that walked by shouted: "A clue!" Everyone that heard it appreciated it (me) then everyone I explained it to also appreciated it.
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As I was walking back to my dorm from middlebrook a series of funny thoughts ran through my head. First off, a girl was wearing a nice jacket with the zipper zipped but not the cool button things...the thought that ran through my head was: "Button up your coat and stop being such a hooker. Warm weather does not make prostitution legal." I'd explain this in detail, but I just think it's funny so enjoy. The second thought to enter my head was "Yes I'm naked under these clothes. Stop judging." I really want to shout that to anyone that gives me a weird look. I think it would be hilarious.
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Once I arrived at my dorm I realized I really had to pee. Unfortunately the janitor was cleaning our bathrooms. I seriously just stood in my dorm and paced around in mini-circles then would open my door and look out...often making awkward eye contact with the janitor. I decided to go down to floor 3. I realized then that the floor 3 bathrooms are much different than the floor 4 bathrooms. It was weird. When I flushed the handle thing got stuck and it just continued to make that annoying toilet noise and I laughed at it for a second...then I decided to make it stop. I washed my hands like a lady and went back to my room.
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Amongst all these things of humor I had a French test...which went fairly well I think? Good one might even say even though I'm not sure...it was rushed. And in approximately 2 hours 19 minutes and 31 seconds I have a Spanish presentation on Pablo Picasso. It shall be good I hope.
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This weekend will be fun!
It's the weekend! Get off your butt and have some fun!

Fancy Feast?...I think so.

Today I indulged in a very filling dorm meal in celebration of Thursday. After tomorrow I have survived. I have a French written exam tomorrow morning and a Spanish Presentation in the evening. I hope both go well. So far this week hasn't been a fail by any means.

Yesterday I daydreamed in Spanish about the meaning of life and what I believe in. I think I've figured everything out. One of these days I will write it all out here, but I think I'll wait until I have it properly organized.

Before assembling my meal, while I was opening the triangle of cheese it slipped out and flew into the air and I caught it. It was by far one of the most interesting things I did all day. Sad, I know.

Next to me is a slip of paper that reads: Congratulations! You have finished your 1003 Oral Presentation...blah blah blah. I can't wait until this paper is true. I hate presentations. But, Pablo Picasso will treat me well tomorrow I hope.

Now, I leave you.

Goodnight.

Un Peu de Francais

Hey there. I have a French oral exam tomorrow so therefore I plan on typing what I want to say to help me memorize...so here it goes.

Bonjour. Ca va? Qu'est-ce que tu fais un week-end typique? Le week-end je sors avec des amis, je dors tard et regarde la tele. Est-ce que tu fais des activites avec tes amis? Nous allons du cinema et faisons la fete. Qu'est-ce que tu aimes faire le week-end? J'aime sortir avec des amis, dormir tard, et aller au cinema. Est-ce que tu vas a la bibliotheque? Je vais a la bibliotheque. Est-ce que tu vas au cafe? Je vais au cafe. Est-ce que tu as des project pour le week-end porchain? Le week-end porchain je vais diner au restaurant et sortir avec des amis. Qu'est-ce que tu veux faire ce week-end? Je veux dormir tard. Qu'est ce que tu vas faire vendredi? Je vais etudier. De quelle ville viens-tu? Je vien de Minneapolis. Comment est ta ville d'origine? Lake City est beaucoup petit. Quels batiments y-a-t-il dans ta ville d'origine? Lake City a un parc, un bureau de poste, et une eglise. Ou se trouvent-ils? Lake City est entre Red wing et Rochester en Minnesota. Comment est ton quartier? Mon quartier a beaucoup personnes. Qu'est-ce qu'on peut faire dans ce quartier? Nous pouvons aller au cinema, faire un promenade, et diner au restaurant. Que moyen de transport est-ce que tu recommandes pour se deplacer? Je recommande l'autobus. Comment viens-tu a la fac? Je vien en l'autobus.

I'm becoming quite the pro...right, right? Well, I'm not "nervous" for this test, but I'm a little concerned about it. I hope it goes okay. I need to study a lot.

Today was a really decent Tuesday if you were wondering. I spent time with Jon & James then Mike then Jon, then Mark, and later Riley. All this took place before 6:15 so therefore I now have plenty of time to complete my homework.

I should be getting another package tomorrow. If not tomorrow, then Thursday. This makes me happy again. I love mail.

Today someone complimented my handwriting and it made my day a little. Watching The Office during post-lunch time with Mike is fun.

Now that you know me you can start refering to it as the Post-Krista era.

The End.

♥

I am prepared to conquer any obstacle that dares to confront me.
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When I don't know what to say I will smile.
It's what I do when I feel defeated and unable to defend myself.
It's a flaw of mine that probably saves friendships.
Though, most of the time, I wish I could do something other than smile.
I wish I could do something other than that sigh like I'm joking
Or that look nobody knows the meaning of.
In the meantime smiling seems easier.
One of these days it will be different.
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I am, however, battling no new feelings.
I am getting more content every day.
Certain things just seem to never go away though.
I've come to just accept that.
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I got a package in the mail.
It made me smile inside.
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I miss you.
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♥

Speechless

Sometimes I imagine moments of my life as if they are part of a movie.
Most of the time they are moments without words.
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I have so much to say, yet am unaware how to express it.
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I'll leave it to this:
I had an
-amazing morning: filled with watching cartoons and eatting pizza rolls in bed with lots of blankets.
-odd afternoon: that felt as if it was nonexistent.
-a fun evening: complete with movie with a friend & junk food.
-an odd night: in which I have so much to accomplish yet no motivation to do it...I have everything that needs to be done completed though so it's not a big deal.
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I had a nightmare last night where I was walking downtown with a group of three friends whos names I will not say. One of them got behind and didn't see a car coming and crossed the sidewalk. A car flew by and hit him really hard...so hard that blood was everywhere. I collapsed at my other friend's feet and started crying. I'm not sure exactly what it means, but yet I probably do. My subconscious doesn't really like you, but it cares about you. I apologize. The image will forever be in my head because it was the most bloody dream I have ever had in my life and very realistic. If I'm near you I will be sure to watch for traffic.
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This week is going to hurt me. French is going to be absolutely ridiculous. I have lots of Psychology homework. Plenty of Spanish homework along with a presentation. And humanities there is always so much reading and a definite quiz.
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Monday: One more day closer to Friday. This weekend will be fun.
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Goodbye.
You're beautiful.

Army of Darkness

http://www.beintheheights.com/kristajohn
Hey. Do me a favor and just go to that website. You don't even need to stay on it that long. If I get enough people to go to it then I win free tickets to In the Heights. I had just given up because my friend is in 1st and I thought that was good enough, BUT he told me to keep doing it so now I changed my mind.
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Enough with that though.
I saw Army of Darkness tonight, and can I say that it was the best worst movie I ever saw. Well, maybe not the best, but it made me laugh a lot.
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Tomorrow my parents are visiting. I'm actually looking forward to this a lot. Not only do I get lots of stuff I asked for, but also they're pretty nice people. I think the distance really helped the whole relationship thing and I like it. I also get a TV/DVD player/Cable tomorrow...woo hoo!
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It's gross outside and I don't approve.
I saw a gumby and gorilla costume...it was freaky in the dark...I thought they were going to rape me, but I survived.
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Remember to check out that website.
Go to it again if you must: http://www.beintheheights.com/kristajohn
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Thank-you for your awesome assistance. And thank-you to random people who read this. I'm glad you enjoy my words and blog decorations.
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Happy Halloween. Tomorrow.

Beautiful Rain

Today it's raining, but I have had an amazing day so it doesn't really matter. I kind of enjoy listening to music that fits this weather and relaxing in my room.

I rearranged my room yesterday so I have twice the amount of space. It is so awesome. Next week I'll have everything I need and I'll take pictures.

Today James, Jon, Libby, and I performed a little skit for French class that made my day. We were overly enthusiastic about everything and the plot included Jon wanting to get stamps...this was our script:

Jon: Bonjour. Je besoins de timbres!
James: Nous pouvon a le bureau de post dans la ville.
Libby: Bon idee!
Me: Comment allons-nous en ville?
Libby: Nous pouvons prendre la bus!
*enthusiastic face*

I really love our French class. Everyone in there is a decent person and there are a lot of above decent people.

I don't have any homework I have to do tonight, however, I do have a super busy week next week so I will probably be trying to stay ahead. I have one more class to attend. Yay Spanish!

Have a beautiful Thursday.

Art

The bottom one is my interpretation of the one above it. It was done with pencil, pen, and markers.

I love drawing. Really only when I feel like it though because I don't have a lot of patience to take a lot of time.

I had a good day if you're curious. I won't go into detail tonight.

I'm either going to bed or going to read some Psych.

We'll see what happens...

Adios

Travaillais Le Coin de La Rue

It starts again...
Trabajaba la esquina used to be one of those things in Spanish that made me laugh.
I now figured out that Travaillais le coin de la rue means the same thing in French.
It doesn't sound nearly as funny, but it's the idea behind it that counts.
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Today was probably one of the most productive weekdays overall I've ever had.
I started off my morning at 7:30 by getting ready: taking a shower, getting dressed, putting on my face, etc.
I then started laundry.
While I waited for laundry I started reading my Humanities assignment and cleaned.
I went to French.
I got back and switched the laundry over.
I went upstairs and finished my humanites reading, did dishes, and got my stuff ready.
I then brought the laundry up and put it away.
Quickly looked over Psychology and took some notes from the online lectures.
I walked to Middlebrook and had dinner with Mike.
Studied for Psychology in the lounge.
Took a Psychology test.
Walked to Humanities.
Got coffee.
Walked to Spanish.
Class got out early and I went back, ate some fake chinese food, did my Spanish online assignments, did my Spanish paper, texted a friend, took a Psych quiz, read my Psych discussion assignment, and studied French.
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I will now either continue homework and get ahead or not...
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I did decent on my Psych test...much better than before, but still not satisfying to my expectations (76%) next time I will definately have an 83% or higher. I've decided. I also had coffee today, which I'm pretty sure made my evening really good because I got a lot of energy. Getting out of Spanish early and getting so much accomplished also helped my mood dramatically. Overall a very good day for no truly valid reasons in my book. I will make this week a fun one because I've just decided I will get ahead...then I will have fun fun fun the rest of the week...I miss those weeks.
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Sorry this is a little lame. I don't feel like being creative. One of these days I will.
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I can't wait for unknown events.
I am a very happy person now.
Oh, and by the by...feel free to comment in my little box...write me a message or something...I'm not sure...but you can.
Hasta Later.

I Feel Way Too Much Like Sunday...

Why am I trying so hard for something I probably don't want.
Why has my mind convinced me it will be better for me.
Why am I beginning to think differently of you.
It's only going to break your heart,
But I find it better to keep trying...
Just in case...
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Hey. It's me again.
I had a really good weekend.
Now that Sunday has arrived, it is crappy again.
I hate Sundays.
The lighting is usually weird. The air is usually awkward.
And, you know there's a lot to do and a full week ahead.
Why is it so confused on its identity also?
Is it the last day of the week or the first day of the week?
Because it is referred to as a part of the weekend.
Yet, is classically defined as the first day of the week.
Sunday is just an awkward day.
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Friday and Saturday were quite similar.
Friday I spent most of the day with Andrew.
We went shopping at Target.
I carried 2 cases of his Cherry Coke Zero back and he carried 2 and a grocery bag.
It was a successful trip for him,
And both our arms were sore.
Then we hung out, partied, left a party, joined a party, and then we walked.
Saturday I went shopping at MOA with Andrew, Preston, and Mike.
It was fun, but shopping too long hurts my head...and that's what we did.
But, again, it was fun.
We went to Jimmy John's and then Mike, Andrew, and I watched a couple of movies.
And I stayed overnight at Andrew's dorm.
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Now I am left with Sunday.
I have laundry and dishes to do
And lots of studying to do for Psychology...
I have a test tomorrow...
A test I am just bound to not do well on...
Because they are rude people.
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I had a conversation with a person
And I acted differently...
I don't think that's a good idea,
But it works for now...
I know we are never meant to be...I know.

Queen Frostine

So I know what I'm going to be for Halloween: Queen Frostine from Candyland. I'm doing a bit of my own interpretation, but generally speaking it will be awesome.

This will be super fun.

Wish me luck.

7 Days before I have a TV! Yay! Movie Night will be epic I hope.

A Mi Me Cae Bien El Chocolate

Several things about the past two days have been really good and rather bad.
We'll start with the bad because that's how things work:

Yesterday I did homework all day.
Today I had a surprise listening quiz in French and I'm sure did terrible...or around a C probably...which is pretty close to terrible. Plus, I got a C on that composition essay that I said I would do good on. Fail prediction.

On the bright side of things I read 2 1/2 chapters of Psych and took 2 quizzes. This is amazing because the chapters are long and the quizzes are incredibly difficult. I didn't complete my goal, but I feel much better about myself.
I also discovered yesterday after taking my Spanish test that I really love Spanish. It wasn't even that I felt super great about how well I did...even though I'm pretty sure I did good. I just really love Spanish. It reassures that I'm doing the right thing because I have never felt this way about any other subject except possibly when I would look at really good Interior Design when I wanted to be an Interior Designer.

Today in French there was a couple of presentations. In one they gave us fancy deli chocolate and mousse. It. Was. Delicious. God, I love chocolate.

Tonight I might be going to target for a Halloween costume and then at 10:30 going to a Music/Dance Party in Middlebrook which I'm super excited for!

I still have lots of homework to complete that I didn't get to last night...
And for that I will leave you.

Today I will go puddle jumping...and not for fun.

My Life Story In the Form of Music

Today I didn't want to do homework so instead I went on facebook.
I was creeping on one person after another and found this note.
It was one of those where you put your ipod on shuffle and come up with your life story.
I went ahead and did it and wasn't pleased. Though it did make me laugh because everything was all mixed up.
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I came up with my own:

Opening Credits:
"Jennifer's Jacket" Presidents of the United States
(I don't understand either, but it would be funny)
Waking Up:
"Beautiful" Social Code
(I will wake up dancing in front of a mirror in my movie...that's just fact)
First Day of School:
"Loser" Beck
(I have no reasoning behind this)
Falling in Love:
"Falling In Love At The Coffee Shop" Landon Pigg
(Yeahhh I'll have one serious moment where I fall in love and share an epic kiss at a coffee shop)
Fight Song:
"Kung Fu Fighting" Carl Douglas
(I'm thinking of an epic battle here...epic...just saying)
Breaking Up Song:
"I've Seen Better Days" Citizen Cope
(I don't do the sad breakup thing...there will be dancing)
Prom Song:
"We Want The Funk" Parliament
(I've always wanted to dance to this song...why not at prom)
Life Theme:
"Another Sunny Day" Belle & Sebastian
(I'm a very happy person)
Mental Breakdown:
"Albi the Racist Dragon" Flight of the Concords
(Mental Breakdown means crazy right?)
Driving:
"Ground Control To Major Tom" David Bowie
(Another person will be in the car with me and we will sing together and it will be epic...true story)
Flashback:
"Be Nice to Animals" The Salteens
(Ha...I picture my parents or grandparents teaching me a valuable lesson in a zoo even though this never really happend...)
Sex Scene:
"I'm Too Sexy" Right Said Fred
(Dancing and Stripping will be involved)
Wedding Scene:
"Whip It" Devo
(We will make an awesome couple...)
Birth of a Child:
"Raising My Family" Steve Kekana
(I picture an awkward car scene with me and my husband stopped at a stoplight and both look in the backseat at a child smiling...and we both have the facial expressions of "what the hell are we doing".
Final Battle:
"Who's Gonna Save My Soul" Gnarls Barkley
(Again, with the epic battle...pretty sure I'm going to fight off robots or something)
Death Scene:
"Last Living Souls" Gorillaz
(The World Dies With Me except the robots)
Funeral Song:
"Robots" Flight of the Concords
(Yeahhh the song explains everything)
End Credits:
"Marina Gasolina" Bonde Do Role
(I just really like this song...I will be dancing in a little box in the top right corner)
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I suggest you listen to all those songs while reading my notes about them. It will be an epic comedy...and everyone will laugh.
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Today is a good day.

Good Day/Buen Dia/Bon Jour

Hey.
I changed my major.
Nothing dramatic, but it added on more classes.
I am now a Spanish & Portuguese major with a French minor.
I then began to plan out the next 4 years and realized that I have to start taking Portuguese next semester.
My advisor will call me stupid for taking 3 languages at once,
But I don't really care what she thinks of me.
Next semester will be fun.
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Today was a really good day.
I woke up and found out I did good on my French test that I did minimal studying for.
I got a package from Susan Draves.
I skipped Psychology to study for Spanish.
I turned in my Humanities paper and it was a relief.
I took an easy Spanish test.
I finally started crossing things off my list so I'm less stressed.
I planned out my future and feel really happy about it.
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I'm pretty sure I have an in class French composition tomorrow.
This is okay because I got 10/10 on the composition part of my test.
But, I must study anyways.
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Take the short route because it might be longer than you thought.
I hope your bed is as soft as a bunch of baby bunnies.
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Je peux parler francais tres bien. Je veux estudier francais dans la universitaire. Maintenaunt je veux dormir.
Aujourd' hui il fait froid et il pleut. Je n'aime pas le temps froid.
Mi routine c'est: d'abord je me leve. Ensuite, me douche. Puis, me habille. Apres me maquille. Enfin me brosse les dents.
Demain je vais a estudier, manger avec Mike, aller a las classes, et estudier psychologie parce que c'est tres difficile.
That is all I can think of...thanks for reading.

Not Yours, Not Mine

I find it interesting how people can be possessive of other people
And when people treat people as objects.
I often find myself feeling as if I know someone better than someone else
Or feeling as if they like me more.
But, the truth is that is a bit ridiculous.
Because I hate it when people feel possessive over me.
I don't like the feeling that someone thinks they know you so well
They try to use it to their own advantage.
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Today I will attend an optional meeting.
This meeting is about what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Specifically my exact career.
I'm looking forward to this.
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I hope to someday be the best.
Right now I am not the best at anything.
I can accept that because not many people are.
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Sometimes it seems we need words of encouragement.
So I will say you are good at what you do
And you can be whatever you want to be.
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Sometimes I just don't think that's enough.
But, it won't stop me.
So don't let it stop you.
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I wish I could curl up in your arms and sleep.
That sounds nice.

Mon Ami

Bonjour! Ca va mon ami? J'ai un examen demain.
Qu'est-ce que vous faites ce soir? Je vais a etudier. Je ne peux aller au cinema ou faire du sport. Quel dommage!
Quel temps fait-il? Il fait beau et du soleil. C'est l'automne. J'aime l'automne.
Aujourd'hui je vais a manger en Middlebrook avec Mike. Apres je vais a aller a la classe. Enfin je vais a faire du se coucher.
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That is my French. I have learned so much yet know nothing. I need a lot of help for my test tomorrow...and by help I mean I need to study. I have so much to do this week.
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I had an amazing week last week. Actually from right around the 8th of October until today I have done something fun. That's really good and really bad for obvious reasons. But, I am confident that everything will be completed.
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You can count on me practicing my French a lot here because I really need to practice and I think it looks beautiful.
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This is my "good student" week in which I will be a good student.
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The End.
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P.S. I got cake for my birthday.

Nineteen

Hey there.

So...tomorrow is my birthday. Actually, at 1:33am is my birthday (which is still tomorrow).

I think birthdays are awkward and pointless, but I still love them. Why? I haven't quite figured that out. I'm not a huge fan of being the center of attention, but it is always nice to have people care about you just a little bit more than the average day. It's how I imagine it would be like to be famous (translation: LOTS of facebook notifications). Cake is good, but I never get that anymore sadly. You also get to do more stuff every year without it being looked down upon.

So,what do I gain this year with my age of wisdom? Glad you ask because 19 is a beautiful age of nothingness that I still feel like I'm gaining a lot for. I didn't think I had anything at all this year, but while I was looking up stuff for curing upper respiratory flu (because that's what I have had for a few days now) I came across "In the United States the Food and Drug Administration recommends that aspirin should not be given to children under 19 years of age during episodes of fever." So, I'm now in the clear for that. Even though I don't take aspirin it's nice to know that I can do something other people can't (muahaha aspirin during a fever). Chris Polansky told me I can buy cigarettes in New Jersey now...I don't smoke, but at least I know I can when I'm chilling outside the Newark airport.

Today I began my pre-celebration by going to Michael Ian Black and Michael Showalter. Quite good I must say. I laughed a lot and it was the type of entertaining where you just want to keep watching. I thought the audience was annoying. I was disappointed in Minneapolis for that. The Pantages theater is so beautiful though. I really want to go skydiving.

Tomorrow I continue celebrating by attending class (woo hoo) or at least 1 or 2 of the 3. Then I'm going to Faith Healer at the Guthrie with Andrew. Then going to Where the Wild Things are with a few people. I'm excited...like super excited.

I like you, and Budda too.
I hope your un-birthday treats you well.

Sincerely,
Me

What I Know That You Don't Know That I Think You Should Know

Everything has taken a turn
Life is still a little off balance
I've never loved it so much.

I have mountains upon mountains of things to do,
Yet I know they will somehow get done.

I've decided the route of the road of life.
I'm not sure what the scenery looks like,
But I know the end is exactly how I want it to be.

I spoke ill of him and he responded.
The subject was covered in dust,
But has once again been uncovered.

Today I got from Switzerland to Narnia
And Krista to Twilight.
Just a fun little game.

I need things.
Things like posters.

It's my birthday this Friday.
I'm excited.
Wednesday Through Saturday and maybe Sunday
Will be Epic.

I want you to listen to yourself
And decide whether I like what you're saying
Because sometimes you make me sad.
But a part of me doesn't care at all.

Snails actually have thousands of teeth.

To The Limit of my Mind

There's no end in sight.

135 pages of Psych reading and counting...
3 online quizzes...
11 pages of Humanities reading...
1 hour of studying for French...
3 loads of laundry...
10+ French online assignments...
1 essay to make corrections on...
Endless studying...

Yet, there's still no end in sight...

I will continue my Psychology reading...then take a practice test.
And soon I will be prepared for this scary week.

2 exams...
2 meetings...
6+ online assignments...
1 book to read...
1 essay exam to begin...

I will continue on my reading journey...
Goodnight.
Have a nice Monday.

Lessons At Learning

I attempted to come up with a top 10 list of my favorite bands, but instead came up with a list of my top 20. These are in no particular order (I also made sure to represent each one of them in my blog playlist):

-Sufjan Stevens
-The New Pornographers
-Voxtrot
-Band of Horses
-The Flaming Lips
-Sondre Lerche
-Dr. Dog
-Islands
-Yo La Tengo
-The Decemberists
-Peter Bjorn and John
-Okkervil River
-The Shins
-Belle & Sebastian
-Rogue Wave
-The Offspring
-Citizen Cope
-Matt Costa
-The Mountain Goats
-Psapp

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I had a really awesome Friday. By day I saw my best friend Josh Draves-Kellerman and by night I hung out with Andrew Buckholtz and met a bunch of people. It was really fun...both day and night.
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I've decided if I were to go back to meet any person/people in history they would be Socrates, Plato, and Aristotle. I had heard this response to this question earlier in my life and thought it was super lame, but I didn't truly appreciate anything in that time. Taking Humanities in the West has completely changed my opinion on history. By the end of the class I have a feeling I will have my beliefs pretty much in order because today was the beginning of something good.
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I've learned a lot in the past month. Things I knew in the back of my mind already, but never appreciated. One being there is always somebody better than me and somebody worse than me. Two being I am a unique person with many unique traits, but in the grand scheme of the University I am not unique at all. Three being I will never have another day in my life with nothing to do. And of course there are many more things, but those are the main ones I can think of off the top of my head.
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I love the way things are because I like a challenge.
I wouldn't change anything.
Hope you have a Super Sunday...
I'll be doing homework all day just like I did today.
But, it's okay because it will result in being more prepared than last week.
Adios.

Beautiful October

October has arrived.
The month of the year.
The month where everything happens.
The month where I turn 19.
I can't wait.
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This weekend will be good.
I spend time with an old friend.
I spend time with new friends.
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I have a French Oral Exam tomorrow,
A Psych exam on Monday
And a French Exam on Tuesday.
My partner and I are going to kill the oral exam in a good way.
I suck at pronounciation, but I practiced!
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I did pretty well on my first two exams: Spanish & French.
That makes me happy.
I'm sensing college grades and I will get along just fine.
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Today I had a love-hate relationship with the rain.
I love sitting inside and watching it
And going outside for a short walk.
But, I hateee walking to class in it.
But, I survived, and today was a decent day.
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My plan is coming together quite nicely.
Perhaps you will understand on a later date.
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In the meantime, I now have 3,336 songs on my itunes.
I've found myself to have a music addiction
And I love it.
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Have a beautiful weekend.
Live your life beautifully.

Happiness, Passion, Strength

Expressing myself is overrated.
Who needs to hear how I feel?
And if they do, who is to say they can fully understand?
I never feel it necessary to grasp an emotion other than happiness, passion, strength and a couple of others.
All the others are wasted--saddness, complaining, bitterness, anger, frustration, etc.
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She is part of the reason for my future
And that's all you need to know...
That's all you need to feel.
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I cherish the words of a song that say "It took a funeral to make me feel alive."
I live to be alive, but why do I die?
I have extended beliefs on what happens afterwards, but you wouldn't understand.
I don't mean to judge you, your intelligence, or beliefs, but it's true.
You have your beliefs and I have mine.
But, the one thing that matters while you're here is that you make the best of it.
I'm pretty sure we can all agree on that.
Ask yourself everyday if you made the best of this day.
Few days the answer to that is yes, but please don't dwell.
It wastes time.
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Acknowledgement and Acceptence
are the two most important words when dealing with problems.
Difficult to do, yes.
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I talk about this for two reasons.
An important person in my life passed away today
And I did terrible on a quiz I took today.
Both completely unrelated in subject matter and intensity,
But yet I discovered both required the same process.
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Thank-you. You were an inspiration.

And, to you, the reader
You are an inspiration to someone more than you'll ever know.
Acknowledge, accept, and live your life.
Stop the worthless emotions and express the others.
Then, you will find true happiness.
I haven't quite found it, but I'm getting there.
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Have a beautiful day.

While You Were Away

Aquaintances have disappeared and I'm left with friends.
I like this situation so much better.
Even though I would probably have had fun if I went home this weekend,
I am 100% satisfied with my decision to stay here
Because my weekend was as much fun (if not more) than if I would have gone home.
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I went to an awesome concert with a person I had only been in the same room with, but never talked to (Chris Polansky)...and it was great. There was very little small talk and our night ended in a large amount of inside jokes. It was in the top 5 best nights of September.
Saturday I went to the gym with Elissa. I must say that I am still sore. She told me I should be doing pushups every night so that the next time we go we will be more prepared. Tonight I will start that, but godddddd my arms hurt. It was really fun though.
Sunday I had a lunch date at the Tea Garden with Andrew Buckholtz. It was delicious. Then we went back to Middlebrook and joined a group of people to do homework. First we got rained out when we were outside so we went inside a building. When we came out a few hours later it turned to November or December. We walked to Lucky Dragon and got Chinese to go. And then just hung out for a while. Andrew, Mike, and I took a bunch of pictures with Andrew's webcam and it was hilarious. This could also be in the top 5 nights/days of September.
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A spider was crawling on the desk next to me in French class today. One of those enormous ones. And it landed on my backpack. I freaked out quite a bit...but it was understandable considering how gross it was. I've decided I have an actually phobia of spiders...not just a fear. I've come to accept that as okay. I'm not in a hurry to get over it...
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Psych
Humanities
Spanish
Is the rest of my day.
Lots of homework is in the future for tonight...
I'm not excited.
I don't want to bike in this cold weather either....
But, I will anyways...
Good day.

Two Hours Time

Today I had great conversation beyond comprehension.
I discussed everything important.
Everything that few people know.
And things I'm pretty sure that not one single person knows.
I tend to tell different people different things.
Not lies,
Just different facts so that nobody can say they completely know me.
I feel like one other person might know a lot of these things I discussed today.
And another person comes close, but can't say that's the truth.
Today I had a person take deep interest in what I had to say.
Usually people don't listen, so I don't tell.
I don't like forcing conversation about myself.
I also don't want people to say that they know me.
Because I don't believe anyone can truly know another person.
And I've had people say they know me even though they don't.
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Generalizations are the worst thing you can say to me.
Then to look at me with that look like I'm wrong.
You don't know what I've never told you.
So trust me when I say what's a false statement about me.
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I felt really refreshed after today and also very inspired.
I feel like I could pull and all nighter and just be productive.
Even though I'm incredibly tired and know that would be very stupid.
I wish I could tell you what I discussed today,
But a part of me believes that you will never truly listen
So I will never truly tell you.
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I'll never call you on your generalizations,
But you'll know when I feel defeated.
I have a look that I give and an attitude that I get.
I'm capable of defending myself, but never want to reveal the information it takes.
Defending myself is also something I don't feel necessary.
I only discuss when things are natural.
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Today was a good day based only on two hours of time.
I wish that every hour were like those two.
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Razzmatazz!

Today's theme turned out to be music.
I surpassed the 3,000 song mark on my itunes.
It was an epic moment.
I have some new favorite bands today: Manchester Orchestra, The Real Tuesday Weld, Under The Influence of Giants, Minus the Bear, The Black Keys, Yo La Tengo, Film School, and Edison Glass.
Next week I'm sure I will have more.
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Today I took two exams.
.French went well. I'm guessing I got 3-5 points off out of 60.
.Spanish went well. The listening section was pretty messed up, but I suppose it's possible I got 100%...unlikely, but possible.
I also took a Psychology discussion essay quiz thing that we do every week. The first of three questions was fairly difficult, but the rest were good and I think I can B.S. well enough to get all the points.
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Today as my Spanish teacher was going on and on about football I was thinking about how people can feel so possessive over a group of talented people. I think the same thing about relationships. I wish I knew why everyone was so desperate to have control over everything. Oh well.
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I really like the word razzmatazz. I'm not sure how I can use it in a conversation, but I'm going to make a direct effort to do so.
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Until later.
Goodbye.

Tri-Lingual Blog

J'ai un cours d'espagnol, francais, psychologie, et sciences humaines. Le francais est passionnant et difficile. Il commence a neuf heures cinq. Le espagnol est facile et il commence a cinq heures moins vingt. Psychologie est ennuyeux et commence a une heure vingt. Sciences humaines est passionnant et commence a doix heures et demie. J'ai espagnol et francais lundi, mardi, mercredi, jeudi, et vendredi. J'ai psychologie lundi, mardi, mercredi, et vendredi et sciences humaines lundi et mercredi.
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I have a French exam tomorrow, obviously. I also have a Spanish exam, but I already know how to say stuff in there. I'm very proud of the above paragraph even though it's really nothing special and is actually really lame, but definately correct besides accents. French is really hard, but I also love it.
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Today was a really really good day. Why, you ask? Well, it started off with a conversation with Mike because he spent the night at my dorm...I'm not much of a morning person, but when people are around me I tend to get over that. Then in French we just reviewed and it was pretty nice. Then on my way back I hit a person on my bike (this is not good), but they survived with no injuries. I wasted some time in my dorm then ate lunch in Middlebrook with Mike. I went to Psychology and actually had a professor I liked (lately the Pysch professors have been super boring). I went to Humanities and loved it as always..for being a 2+ hour class it goes by really fast. I went to the Purple Onion and got a Mocha Chiller. Then in Spanish we played Mata La Mosca and it was fun...I'm starting to really like our class. I also liked my group. Got home and was productive. Took my Psych quiz online and aced it the first time with minimal help from the book and it's over the nervous system. After dancing around my room because I was so happy, I accomplished more. How awesome does that day sound? Pretty darn awesome.
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I must say that I am in a relationship with Sondre Lerche...except he doesn't know it and neither does his wife. I love him. If he wasn't so funny and his accent wasn't so frickin' awesome I wouldn't, but I suppose it also helps that he is fairly attractive and sings/plays the guitar fantasticly. He signed my shirt I bought. I was super excited...still am.
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I love my life here. Even though it's stressful a lot of the time, it is exactly what I want right now.
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I have to get back to studying. I just needed a break.
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Adios. Espero que tengas un buen dia manana y espero que vaya a sacar una A en mi examen de espanol. Hoy yo tuve un buen dia. La moda es una cosa muy importante para mucha gente como la nina de nueve anos y las pinturas que son anuncios. Para mi la moda es una expresion y nada mas. Es estupido siempre estar a la moda sin su propio estilo. Usa tu mente por favor.
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There. I think I'm ready.
Hasta Later.

.Jared.

This is Jared. He wanted me to mention him tonight. He didn't request I put up a picture...especially this one, but it made me laugh and we all love laughter.
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Originally I didn't plan on writing anything so this might be a little lame. Just to clarify.
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Today I saw both of my favorites...then I saw three more new favorites. I went to a twins game. I wandered around downtown Minneapolis with friends. I played "Skunk or Skank"...a game that I pretty much made up...skunk means okay and skank holds true to the name. I did French homework. Um...that seems about all I did. But, it was a very successful day.
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That's really all I have to say. Enjoy the picture of Jared. It's a classic.

Waitin' For a Superman

Today I heard two different conversations in a language I don't comprehend.

First:
*lots of words I don't understand* laxative *more words I don't understand*
*laughter*

Second:
*10 minutes of words I don't understand*
"It's just so hard to take anything seriously."
*10 more minutes of a different language*
"And it was the funniest thing ever."
*Back to the other language...*
"But...at least you have Chinese."
"Yeah, that's true."
*More words I don't understand."

I found them both to be amusing. There was more to the second that was funny, but I can't remember because I wasn't that much of a creeper. They were just right next to me for two hours at a coffee shop and I overheard random English.
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I had a dream that my friend won $1,137 with a $35 gift certificate to a random casino. I want to know why my subconscious picked that number...I was even confused in the dream.
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I found a location I can escape from everything and the location where I'm going to meet the guy of my dreams. I'm just saying...I'm pretty sure that's what is going to happen.
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I have lots of plans for the weekend. This is exciting news. I also have a lot of homework and two exams on Tuesday. This is not exciting news.
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I've decided I will try to make all my twitters at least semi-funny. I tend to not be creative in my humor and just quote other people, but it is now my goal to come up with my own, and might I say I am pretty proud of my accomplishments the past two days. Also, I tend to use twitter to say my frustrations and I've realized most people don't care. This is unimportant news to the majority, but it was necessary to type out. So don't complain.
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There's a guy in my Spanish class that reminds me of someone. That is the only reason I laugh at almost everything he says and feel comfortable enough to make fun of him. I don't know who he reminds me of, but I get closer and closer to figuring it out every day. He let me borrow his "golf" pencil today. I felt pretty honored.
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I have a bunch of pending friendships. Like the kind where you know if you keep working on it you'll have a bunch of close friends, but you're only on the "Hey, how's it going? Let's make sarcastic humor together and then say goodbye." basis. I also met someone named Raha today...she seemed really nice, but I'll probably never see her again. I like how big this school so I can meet someone new every day, but also, I wish those friendships would just cultivate so I would have go-to people.
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I should probably be doing homework.
I will do homework.

Happy TGIF & Rosh Hashanah.

I'm On Fire

My thoughts become tangled
And I feel as if my mind
Is incapable of continuation.
I have all the motivation in the world,
Yet in the moment have none at all.
Inspiration has slipped out from under my palm
Even though I thought I had it captured.
I find my fears only becoming stronger
And my strength becoming weaker.
Yet, I will always look to you and say:
"I am doing just fine. Can you tell?"
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I really am doing just fine.
Today was Thursday.
People know I'm not a fan of Thursdays.
It is supposedly my "best" day of the week this college season
Because I only have 2 classes:
French & Spanish.
Yet, with all this downtime I find myself not having a purpose.
I find myself more inspired when I accomplish things.
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I'm thinking about changing things.
I'm thinking about changing how I deal with Spanish.
I'm thinking about changing my major...or at least one of them.
I'll give the future time to figure itself out,
But Spanish needs to be acted upon.
And just so you know I still want to major in Spanish.
I'm thinking twice about Psychology.
Twice.
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I have a plan
But refuse to flat out state it
Because that leads to pressure and expectations.
Maybe I need some of those
But right now they are unimportant.
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I really hope the inspiration returns.

Mercredi

Yesterday I was inspired.
Today I am still.
Last night I had a dream that I killed the antagonist
Using a fork, a knife, and a bowl...
Yesterday's enemy
Became my new friend today.
Last night I went to bed with a blanket of steam
And awoke to a beautiful breeze.
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I love French.
I love my teacher and I love the language.
I hope she knows what a good teacher she is
Because I've learned more in the past week than I learned in 6 months of Spanish I.
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I read a beautiful poem/book yesterday.
Agamemnon.
Don't read it for the plot.
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Yesterday I experienced my first feeling of "homesickness".
Only it wasn't homesickness.
I just really wanted to go to work at Nosh and Hope's Harvest.
But, as of now, I'm too busy to get a job.
Perhaps once I figure things out.
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I will be receiving lots of mail in the next week.
Lots of fan mail, lots of other mail.
If you desire also, just ask for my address.
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Very soon things will be falling into place.
They are already starting to.
I'm a much happier person now.
And my sickness is slowly disappearing
And today, so is my voice.
But, it's a good thing...it's means I'm recovering.
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I'm thinking about changing my mind.
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I like you.

Sick

I'm sick.
But my body is convinced that it can't get sick.

I feel like I have a fever all over my body.
That feeling in my throat still hasn't gone away,
And I wake up in the middle of the night to cough.
My nose is running
And I feel weak to the point of wanting to collapse.

I need to eat good food.
My eatting habits have been terrible in the past week.
I need to buy groceries.

I just wish I could stop time.

Oh well, I have to go to class soon.
I'll deal with this after French.

Deux Mondes

I have this painful feeling in my throat.
Like right before I get sick.
My nose feels funny
And can't explain how I feel.
Maybe it's stress
Because I refuse to get sick.
Refuse.
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I'm depressed for one reason today.
Only one reason.
One simple reason that I don't really care to talk about
Because it frustrated me so much.
I should get over it though
Because soon enough it won't even matter.
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I had 2 classes.
Did about 8 hours of homework.
My brain is fried.
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I did chat with an awesome someone.
We agreed and we laughed.
We decided I'm "not an angry person."
...or at least I decided.
I'm glad this person is here
Because I might have cried otherwise
And we all know I don't cry.
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I might study for another hour or so.
I might just go to bed.
I might get randomly invited to some random event.
I might just waste time on facebook and itunes.
3 events are very likely. 1 is not likely.
We'll see how it all works out.
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I'm impressed with society
Because neither my bike seat nor the bike itself has been stolen.
However,
I found a condom in the shower this morning
And it left me feeling confused.
I don't know how I feel about society.
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The End.

He Looks Like Prof. Snape

I survived.
And, not only did I survive, but I survived in the rain.
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I'm getting a negative vibe from Psych just based on the fact there's 700 people in it. I find it very hard to focus on anything. People's comments also get to me. But, I promise to make the best of it because it's one of my majors in this moment.
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Ironically my two favorite classes are not the two that are a part of my major. I love French and I love Humanities in the West.
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I almost stood up in the middle of Humanities to give my professor a hug, but I figured that would be inappropriate.
You see, I thought that class got out at 4:25, giving me 15 minutes to the next class (not bad, but more time is better). Instead he says that he will do everything he can to get us out by 4:10 every day. There is also 10 points extra credit for perfect attendance. Woo Hoo!
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One of my Psych instructors said that 80% of our class is statistically suppose to get the Swine Flu.
One person in my Psych class is statistically suppose to be hospitalized.
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I just realized that it is 11:00 and I still haven't done my French homework. I had lots to tell, but I will wait.
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End.

Summary of My Day: Just Because

Today I:
-awoke at 7:03 and decided it is the offical time I will wake up the rest of the year
-understood French only based on Spanish
-lost more blood from a blister than a lot of other injuries I have had
-met a girl named Megan and had at least two things in common with her
-went to lunch with Mike and was once again impressed with my cafeteria's food
-walked Mike to his English class
-ran into my two Welcome Week besties
-knew someone in my Spanish class
-was told to knock on one of the top 5 most talented people I've met's door whenever I come to Middlebrook next
-was called honey by another one of the top five most talented people I've met
-carried my bike down 4 flights of stairs and almost died physically and physcially
-called my mom and she started crying
-did dishes and took out the trash
-listened to more music than the average person
-finally decided to ask for this guy's number just so I can find him in my class of over 700 people tomorrow
-decided I need to make best friends with Tracy, Celina, and Irene, but can't figure out how to do that without being awkward
-made unfortunate eye contact with the pamphlet guy and got handed a pamphlet
-realized I still am out of breath when I get up the stairs
-sweat a lot
-decided I'll wait a week (or until Thursday) before the gym & yoga
-decided I will go poster shopping tomorrow if schedule allows

Lose Everything, Free to do Anything

My floor is no longer dead,
But instead has been filled with snuddy upperclassmen.
I find them quite repulsive.
And apparently they feel the same way about me.
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A group of guys knocked on my door while Riley was visiting.
They introduced themselves.
I wish more people would do that.
It just makes sense.
Even though I'm sure they won't care about me again.
Whatever. It was a nice gesture.
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My feet are covered in blisters.
But, I feel in very good shape
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This week feels really awkward.
Everything about it.
I feel like you have to push everything too fast to get where you want to be.
And that all the people I meet are only aquaintances.
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I haven't quite found what I'm looking for,
But I didn't expect to right away.
I'm satisfied with my decisions
And soon I will be happy.
I am happy.
I'll keep telling myself that.
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*You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile.

*...you're not how much money you've got in the bank. You're not your job. You're not your family, and you're not who you tell yourself.... You're not your name.... You're not your problems.... You're not your age.... You are not your hopes.

Velociraptor

I'm tired like none other,
And that's always awkward for first impressions.
But, somehow I'm still meeting friends.
Apparently they are the same way.
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The second day and today were the 2 best days for me. 2nd day because there was more free time and today because I'm satisfied with my sanford friend selection. It started off with this one guy introducing himself. And we kind of talked for a while...then during a presentation these two guys turned around and talked. It ended up being us 4 hanging out the rest of the day. I played rockband with Nick and Collin (the two that introduced themselves). It was pretty fun even though they are wayyyy more talented than I am. I wish singing wasn't such a vital tool...or I just wish I could sing good, but whatever. I'm happy.
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I leave in 20 minutes to go listen to Jermaine Davis give a motivational speech. Not too thrilled, but at the same time I guess it wont be too bad...at least I don't have to sit by this one awkward guy anymore.
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That is all for now...I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring except volunteer stuff called "Utopia"...whatever that means....
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Hasta Later!

Title.

Hey.
It's me.
I'm a little uninspired, so excuse my creativity for not being present.
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Today was a good day.
Except for small groups.
Lame.
Though, my group is pretty funny. I can't see any long term friendships with them though so I'll just make casual talk.
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I really love everything about the U. Made some pretty sweet friends. And that's that.
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The days start getting busy as far as Welcome Week goes.
If I can survive this I can survive college.
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Well, I surprisingly have nothing to say....I think I'll walk alone in the dark tonight & I'll just call the escort service to get back. Simple.
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I'll talk to you later I guess....
Excuse me for this boringness.

This Process.

The process of this sucked.
I cried today,
But not because I was sad or because I was leaving,
But rather, I was so frustrated with my mother.
She was being a pain.
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The process of this sucked.
My parents got lost.
Which wasn't bad because we weren't far away and I knew we would figure it out,
But my mom was being a pain.
She's so dramatic.
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This process is worth it.
I love that I can visit people and leave when I want.
I love how I get free escort service.
I love how my room is so peaceful and spacious.
Well not too spacious, but more than I was expecting.
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I put a reed difuser in my room and now it smells like the ocean.
It's quite strong, but I like it.
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I'm really tired, but refuse to sleep.
Perhaps I'll get organized some more.
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Riley and I are hanging out tomorrow.
I like this.

The Magical Cat

Today I saw a cat.
Twice.
It was the same cat I swear.
Only it was in two different towns,
Once at my house and once in Lake City.
How is this possible?
I'm not sure.
But, I looked up the meaning of cats in dreams,
And they mean bad luck.
Is it ironic I lost all my $10 at the casino?
I'm not sure.
I was creeped out the whole ride home.
I felt as if I was going to see this reappearing cat in the middle of the road
Just looking back at me.
But, I didn't.
I'm not a fan of this white cat with orange spots.
It's creepy & looks at me funny & it disappeared into the bushes at my house
& it's a symbol for me losing my money.
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Today I ate a large meal, felt full, yet completely unsatisfied.
Why?
It's called Burger King. Duh.
I'm not a fan, but yet it's what I wanted.
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I hate Bob and Tom and their show.
I hate their laughter.
But yet, I'm watching them on TV now.
Simply so I can just see what they look like.
They look nothing like I imagined when I would listen to them at work at 5 in the morning.
The "Yeah Toast" song always makes me laugh.
If they don't play that in the next 5 minutes I'm switching channels.
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I love my best friend.
I love my friends in general.
Saying goodbye to these people is not fun.
I haven't said goodbye and given this many hugs in a long time.
I still don't feel like it's happening
So I haven't cried.
I don't think I will though.
Unless you throw chopped onions at my face.
That will do it.
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I took a walk around my grandparents yard today after talking to them for 3 hours.
I had so many memories come rushing back:
Not finding any apples under the apple tree & then shaking it harder than I should.
Hunting for monarch caterpillars.
Finding blackberries and eatting them with milk.
Crashing into a tree on a sled with my grandma.
Drinking water from this fountain right next to the barn.
Playing with the fish in the fish pond.
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They haven't played "Yeah Toast" yet....I refuse to listen to them laugh anymore.
I'm watching 2 episodes of Scrubs instead.
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The End

To Kill a Fly

Today I killed a fly.
It flew around my face and around the store,
And then I hit it.
But, it wasn't dead. Yet.
It kicked and moved.
I kept trying to hit it again
To get it out of this misery.
I failed so I let it cling to my finger,
And brought it over to the counter.
And gave it another hit.
The blood splattered on the counter,
And it gave one final kick of its leg.
And it was just dead;
Lifeless for eternity.
I felt a little sad
And way too powerful.
Sure, it was just a fly.
But, who are you?
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As I was waiting for my mother to grab an item off her list at Target,
I noticed a guy giving samples and trying to sell some Special K.
I sympathized when person after person kept rejecting his offer.
It saddens me a little when people reject my free samples at Hope's Harvest.
So, I walked over, accepted his offer, and said it was good.
I ended up getting a box for breakfast at college.
I hope I made his day.
Even though I'm sure the product sold itself.
It was delicious.
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Today was goodbye #2.
And I felt a little more.
I love that job.
It made me more outgoing, showed me I had a slight passion for cooking.
It actually showed me I even had the capability of cooking.
I met some amazing people there,
Life changing people.
I suppose I will drop by for a visit on Thanksgiving.
Unless I visit home earlier.
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My mom got me a DVD series of Looney Tunes cartoons.
I will be watching it during those tough nights.
I love cartoons.
I also love Stranger Than Fiction.
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1 more day in the beautiful town of Lake City.
It's legs are still moving.
After tomorrow I suppose it will be like the fly.
Only life goes on without me,
And I will see it again.
But, doesn't that sound so poetic?
Gosh I'm so ready for college.
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Adios for tonight.
Oh,
Why doesn't every small creature carry a pin and a match like Tweety.
Life expectancy for them would go way up.
This bird has lived, what?, like 100+ years?
Think about that.
Goodbye.

BzzBzzBzz Spicy

Today as I was driving I saw a lonely star balloon
Floating across the sky in the middle of nowhere.
I wondered where it came from
And if there was a crying child somewhere.
I wondered if that child was the type to cry and get over it
or just dwell on it.
It's ironic how that balloon fit into the day I had.
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Today was the first important last for me of 3 important ones (or 1 or 2 more).
Granted, I love every single one of my friends.
I'll miss them oh so desperately.
But, the truth is:
There were 2 friends that had a huge impact on me
And perhaps about 5 or so friends that had a decent impact on me.
And just some of those average people that I can hardly stand to look at anymore.
Some of those friends have left
Some of them haven't.
So far none of these silly goodbyes have meant anything to me
Because I'm not leaving nor have I left.
Goodbyes mean nothing to me unless I feel like something's happening.
And right now, in this moment I'm sitting in a chair watching TV & typing.
It's as simple as that.
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But, today, I said goodbye to only one friend.
And I actually kinda felt something.
Maybe nothing huge,
But I think the process of realizing is finally starting to hit me.
It's not the 1 of 3, but I think it was an important goodbye.
I love you Ana.
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Today my goodbye was to the core of my summer,
The greatest event to be given to me
The event I had been dreaming of since 9th grade.
And despite this event slapping me in the face more times than I can count,
I've never left disappointed.
I've always felt accomplished.
I learned more from this event than I learned in Chemistry
And that says a lot.
Today I began with a present
A present they won't understand why
A present they don't need to know why.
This event gave me a beautiful night back
Filled with a full dinning room of people
And a night without mistakes (the first night without a single small mistake).
But, anyways
Even if you could turn almost all of those sentences into a 'that's what she said' joke...
I'll just say that when it hits me that this goodbye happend
And that Nosh won't be in my life again until next summer (or some random vacation),
It will be quite a sad moment,
But I'm not the type to cry over the balloon and get over it,
Nor the type to dwell.
I just acknowledge and move on.
Because the important things in my life will never completely go away. I promise.
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I've accepted the idea I'm dead on the inside,
Even though that's a false statement
And I really haven't accepted it.
But, whatever, it's simple enough for you to understand.
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And, with that, I will leave you with the thought of making tomorrow an awesome day.
The final day at Hope's Harvest (important goodbye #2 & possibly #3)
Shopping with my mother
Chatting with my grandparents
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Goodbye.
I must rest.

Inspiration Comes & Goes

Today I thought I saw a spider fall from the ceiling,
Right next to my feet.
I looked down,
And there was nothing there.
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I'm stressed to the point of sickness.
I'm frustrated and want to escape.
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I've decided you don't need to know what I did each day.
Because I know you don't always care.
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Today I was refreshed
Then stressed
Then inspired
Then excited
Then stressed
Then depressed.
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Translation: Home isn't a good place anymore.
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I saw a beautiful sunset
Listened to music with my windows down
Sang really loudly.
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Day by day I find myself discovering a piece of the puzzle. This puzzle you will not know of until it is finished. And, sadly, maybe not after that. But, I hope. I hope all this daydreaming is worth it. I hope it results in the beautiful image I have in my head. It has taken years to get to this point. And I finally feel everything is coming together. Within the next year or 2. The puzzle, I'm sure, will be complete. Of course, this is nonsense to you. But, this is not for you at this point.
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I'll be going now.
My heart is filled with optimism
& I hope the dentist listens.

It's Not What You Asked For & Probably Not What You Want to Hear

Sometimes I get the feeling the people I want to listen don't,
And the people that listen don't hear what I want them to hear.

They just wait for that precious moment when they get to spill their advice.
Prove me wrong or tell me a long drained out story of "when this happend to them"

God knows you've experienced everything.

I've begun to think that the word love is used too much.
I've begun to think that the love everyone dreams of isn't meant for everyone.
And that many don't realize that love has different meanings.

I've started to believe that there is not a person that walks the Earth
Who doesn't hold their own interests above the interests of others.

The ignorant may just never realize what the world has been trying to show them.
And, for every left there may just be another left.

The only thing I know is that optimism is the only thing strong enough to overcome reality.

So keep on dreaming those unrealistic dreams,
Because there's a chance you could be the one to get through.

We all know the weak ones aren't the ones that prosper.

And, please, don't wait to talk while you listen.
Because sometimes I don't need you to talk.
Sometimes I don't need you to think.

I want you to care.

But, we all know you're too strong for that.
Even though I wish I could see your tears.

I understand.
I just wait for the moment where I prove to you
That I was worth the silence.
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Stop thinking of meanings.
Some things are just as they are.

And don't say this isn't what you asked for.
Because I know.

Those Lips Are Flaming

With over 100 things on my Life List one on the top was to see a live concert. I always wanted this concert to be absolutely amazing. Epic you could say. Until today I had gone my life without a real concert. And I get leave you with the reassuring words: it was worth it. Perhaps the concert didn't "change my life" but for some reason I still feel the need to use the phrase life changing. I'm still the same person, but I've experienced something that only a few individuals experienced.
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This trip has been amazing. Perfect for what it is.
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There has been so much more, but I feel too tired to discuss. I would go to our room...but James from Australia is sleeping and I know I would wake him.
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I just remembered I'm really hungry...and I'm right next to a vending machine. You can guess what will happen in this predictable situation.
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Goodnight for now.
Oh, and don't write about me unless you are sure of what you are talking about...it annoys me. I accept you apology, but don't keep letting this happen.
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No one is ever really powerless.

Seattle

I'm going to keep this short because this is on my itouch and it's annoying to type, but anyways I'm at the green tortoise hostel now and mike HAD to use facebook because he is an addict.
Yesterday we ate at the top of the space needle and it was amazing...our dessert had dry ice under it so it smoked...the food was amazing and the view was incredible. We also went to pikes market, museum of science fiction and experience the music.

Gotta go...more later...food is in progress.

Important People

Today work was good at both jobs.
Yesterday work was good.
As I was thinking about how much my two jobs have changed me, I also thought of the "people that have had the biggest impact on me" or something like that.
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In Random Order:
1. Leah (way back when we were really good friends)
2. Mike Trost
3. JDK
4. Susan Draves
5. All the Servers and Cooks at Nosh--especially Tiffany, Greg, Jordan, Jeff, Lynn, Coreen, Ankur, John
6. Nathan Frye
7. The Netherlands family that came into Hope's Harvest
8. Esteban
9. The Enthusiastic Guy that came into Hope's Harvest
10. Linda & Emma
11. Ana
12. Anna Carr (really random I know)
13. Mr. Heise, Ms. Marin, Ms. Schmitz
14. All my other friends--Jared, Kevin, Anna Moechnig, Chris, Hannah, Briana, Tiffany, Jessica, Tom, Ashley, Marisa, Laura, Brittany...& so many more.
15. The TV shows Friends and Will & Grace (lame I know)
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Anyways...enough with that. Tomorrow is the day. I'm really not feeling the creative vibe...so I'm sorry I have to leave you on such a dull note. I will have much to say the next time.
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Hasta.

Shoothing Star...Ding Ding Dong

I'm aware that says shoothing even though it should say shooting. I was typing too fast and it ended up that way...and it made me laugh...so I left it.
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I left a pillow on Bri's doorstep. Only because I accidentally took it with me when I was walking to my car and I was too lazy to bring it back.
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I got a CD with 600 something songs on it. It will now bring my ipod to 2,000 and beyond. Aren't you just tingling with excitment?
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Yoga today was awesome. I felt so refreshed. I was complimented on my first head stand. My yoga instructor said that perhaps next month I will be ready to move away from the wall.
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Average statements of the month:
-My aunt left today.
-Seattle is in 3ish days.
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Non-average statements of the month:
-My highway now has the bumpy things on the shoulders of the road....right next to my driveway...so when I went to turn I came in contact with an unfamiliar vibrating sensation. I didn't approve.
-Today I was singing loudly in my car. There was road construction. The road construction guy gave me a look. The End.
-If I were in a race with a hippopotamus...I would lose (or at least according to National Geographic).
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I think that's all I need to say for now.
I hope you laughed at least once.
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The more you know
*Shooting Star*
Ding Ding Dong



....or was that a moth flying above your head?

With All Your Power...What Would You Do?

If you could blow up the world with just a flick of a switch
Would you do it?
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Power has been a problem with me lately. I don't like it. My dad has a lot of power over my finances and I'm not a fan. I like that he's able to help me, but recently it hasn't been help. I tell him to put my statement on my bed every month, but for some reason he doesn't. This has now resulted in us having to figure everything out from all the way back to January. He also lost my statement from April and one of my used-checkbook-carbon copy-dealio. I was so angry I was lost for words. Then he accused me of spending more money than I used to now that I have 2 jobs. Isn't that logical even though I put all my paychecks into the bank for college? Hmm...I think he's upset I'm making lots of tip money and I keep it to do whatever I want with. I've recently just been buying tickets, but I'll get a lot of that money back soon.
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I went on a bike ride today. It was the best thing that happend to me today. I was finally able to bike the entire way up this extremely steep hill we have. I was impressed with myself. And, this time I brought my camera...so I have some cool pictures.
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Over the past 2 weeks I have been more stressed than I have all summer. I was lost in a familiar place (my room), but have now cleaned it. My aunt has been annoying the crap out of me (and that's an understatement). I'm getting worn out from work (even though I love both of my jobs). But, I do believe that Saturday will take an end to all those statements. I have already solved my messy room. My aunt leaves Wednesday (I hope?). Saturday I will have off and then going on a 10 day vacation.
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Last night I had a dream that a whole bunch of tornados were going through Lake City and I was at an unknown person's house. The tornado came right up to the house and everyone started running. Only, I ended up going into the tornado and being thrown in the air. It was a stressful dream. I also had a dream I had a cast on. And another where I missed the bus and somebody gave me candy. All these dreams are signs that I'm under a lot of stress and that somebody is bothering me.
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I don't really know what else to say to you. I am really happy how this August has been. Some things don't feel like they will be reality. One of them is coming true this Saturday and the other 6 days after I get back. I'll miss my friends, but I have a feeling that I'll stay in touch with the most important people to me.
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Did you know I can't go a day without hearing or seeing the word twilight? Yesterday I was reading my magazine and they were showing "twilight inpsired" makeup. Today not only did I come across the book my mom set in my room, but I also saw a commercial for a new show that has an actress from twilight, and I also got hit in the head by the movie twilight when I was looking for another movie for my aunt. I wonder what will happen tomorrow.
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Congratulations on getting your license...I have a congratulations present I will give you tomorrow. And, congratulations on turning 18 tomorrow...I have a present for you as well. You know who you are.
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If you could make everybody poor just so you could be rich
Would you do it?
If you could watch everybody work while you just lay on your back
Would you do it?
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Hasta La Vista

If I Were a Work of Art

Lucky is my day.
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-My MLIA is up to 165 votes. How exciting.
-I got a pair of jeans and a shirt at buckle for less than $70 (that is a miracle).
-I applied for a $50,000 car or $25,000 in cash. Perhaps I will win. Perhaps I am not that lucky.
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-Today someone said Have a Nice Day before my food purchase had been handed to me. They were really embarassed. I sympathized because I've done that at work too. I feel like we bonded.
-Today I tipped the person that cut my hair. She was really happy and I felt like I made her day.
-Today I decided I don't like TJ Maxx. Actually, I decided that when I first witnessed the bargain hunters with the crazy fingers. But, today I made a small purchase and got lost trying to find the checkout. They block everything off with items and it's like a maze. I don't like it.
-Today I also decided I don't like Wet Seal. Too many bright colors and it looks like the 80's threw up on everything.
-Today I got water in a fancy water bottle and had a normal portion of food at the mall.
-Today Brittany went to smell a bottle of shampoo and instead sprayed it all over her face. We both laughed a lot.
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I really enjoy seeing people smile & making people feel better after they make a mistake. I did that a lot today and it made my day wonderful. One of my goals in life is to make other people happy.
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I thought my aunt was suppose to leave today...but not until Wednesday...I'm not sure if I can take it. Thank god for weekends that are busy.
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I'm pleased with the results of So You Think You Can Dance. Brandon is amazing, but I love Jeanine. Evan and Kayla have always been favorites of mine, but I'm glad they didn't win. Hoorah.
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If I were a work of art I would be in black, white, and purple.

A Snuggie Once Told Me...

...A Snuggie once told me it was on backwards. Oh, and that's it's a robe with extra neck material. I think snuggies are like transvestites. I don't feel the need to explain that statement.
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Did you know you can't say happiness without saying penis?
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Today was a full moon. I think things were a little off. Nothing in particular...just things.
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I'm offically going to 2 concerts within the next month...or something like that. I'm a concert virgin so that's very exciting to me. The Flaming Lips and Regina Spektor here I come!!
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Jeez, I had so much more to say before, but now I'm tired and watching my recording of So You Think You Can Dance.
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I spent time with a good friend today. You might even say a great friend. I learned today we are to the "lick your finger and touch my hand with it" point. That's nothing sexual...just something odd that happened and I really didn't react to it. Overall it was really refreshing to laugh so much.
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I also convinced my boss at HH to come with me to Yoga. It was a good time...I was a little frustrated when our yoga instructor forgot to give us neck massages at the end, but he's awesome so all is forgiven.
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I must say Happy Birthday to a someone tomorrow. Happy Birthday.
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Tomorrow I will be spending the day with an old friend that I haven't seen in a long time. Since we last chatted I have changed like none other. Perhaps you haven't noticed, but it's very true.
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I can do impressions when I want of who I want. He thought I couldn't. Now we have developed another inside joke. He's just wonderful though, don't worry. His predictibility is not predictible to all...nor always me. Boo Boo Bee Boop.
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Hasta. Good luck. Happy Birthday. Hope your lips heal. Thank-you. Bye.
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Today at work I noticed a cop marked my car tire with chalk to note that I was in a 2 hour parking zone. Thinking I was smarter than the cop, I took a rag and washed off the chalk. I didn't think that was enough so I moved my car one space over. MLIA

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It's a Nice Day for a White Wedding

Who are you to say what I should do and how I should act?
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Today I invented a smoothie and made it a special at HH. It's so delicious. Blueberries, Banana, Honey, Cream, Yogurt, and Cinnamon. Get one.
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Today Spano, Jad, Jordan, guy who is familiar but I can't remember his name Number 1, and guy who is familiar but I can't remember his name Number 2. It was nice to see them.
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Today I learned that the 5 hour energy drinks as well as the energy shot we serve at HH are made of 3,000-8,000% of your daily Vitamin B-12. It also has the same intensity of six 12oz cups of coffee. They don't have any sugar and a low amount of caffine. That's just what I learned today...nothing I'm advertising....especially if you're a child, pregnant, or have negative side effects to caffine....then stay away...just saying.
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Today my mom found a bat between the garage window...she shut it and trapped it. We both looked at it and decided it was cute. I'm not sure what happend to it...but I've decided bats aren't that bad...behind glass or from a distance.
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Sue, Tim, and I were having a good conversation. Boston came up in subject (the band, not the city of course). When I was driving home I put my ipod on shuffle (that has 2,000 songs on it) and More than a Feeling came on. It was pretty cool.
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My mom just mentioned the bat...she doesn't know what happend to it either...but I feel like she can read my mind...creepy.
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On that note...I think I will leave you. I hope that all your dreams and wishes of this lovely Tuesday came true.
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Hasta Banana

Positives & Negatives

+Today I learned a very basic concept: For every negative there's a positive.
+I also learned that when you slice a crap ton of bread you don't need on a slow day, a whole bunch of people come in, and for that, dreams do come true.
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-My day started off a little on the negative side...my aunt and mom were annoying.
+I then enjoyed relaxing after a busy weekend.
-Then I thought I lost my wallet and learned I had been driving without my license for 2 days (what a badass ha)
-Then my dad helped me find it. Him and my aunt were quite sarcastic. I left the house in a bad mood despite being relieved I found it.
-Work started off really slow. I felt like I was doing everything wrong even though there wasn't a lot to do. Coreen told me it was so slow I might be cut after working only an hour.
+It became crazy busy. 2 waitresses, 1 bartender, 3 cooks, and me along with the business we usually have on a day with double the staff. It was AWESOME!!
-2 wine glasses got caught on the curtain and broke.
+My boss said she would let this time slide so I didn't have to pay for them. I wanted to hug her.
+Coreen played a joke on me once things died down, and I got her back...we laughed and bonded.
+I left Nosh feeling completely happy and had a nice car ride home.
+JDK and I shared a nice text conversation even though I hate texting.
+I get to sleep in tomorrow. Whoo hoo.
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Basically 11 days until Seattle. Perhaps, you have realized how excited I am to escape the house. But, just so you know, I CANNOT wait to escape the house and go on vacation with 2 of my best friends. I'm also going shopping this Thursday...I haven't done that in forever. Hit me up with a text if you want to hang out...I might be able to fit you in somewhere.
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Sweet Dreams & Goodnight
Hasta Later.

The King of Carrot Flowers

Change is good.
Just so you know.
It's obvious I love change.
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I worked 10 hours today. I had an amazing day at both jobs.
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Question. What should you do if you see an endangered animal eatting an endangered plant?
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I'm done.
I almost didn't write anything today, so just be glad I took the time to give you some literature to read.
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Adios.

Thought is Reality

It's one of those days
Where a lot happens,
But it's just so difficult
To put it into words.
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I started off my day thinking I worked at 10 instead of 2. I spent my extra time downloading music recommendations from Becca. They are all good ones. I find we have a lot in common, yet are completely different. I'm glad I met her.
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Today I witnessed a guy that is a new role model for me...one of many. He came into Hope's Harvest and brought in amazing energy. I hope someday I can do that. He just made everyone happy. My favorite thing that he said was when he accused his wife of giving him the "evil eye" and she said she doesn't have an evil eye to which he responded "You don't have an evil eye? Good job Honey." It's one of those "you have to be there" things, and everything he said pretty much made me laugh, but that was very memorable to me.
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I also witnessed two people who I never want to be. They asked for two smoothies and were really snobby about it. Their energy made me so uncomfortable, I'm pretty sure the blender eletrocuted me. The eldest of the two asked what the "black specks" were in her blueberry smoothie...they were the blueberry bits. I wish everyone had the energy the other guy did...or at least more people. The world would be a much better place.
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I saw delicious food at Nosh. I hope I get a chance to eat an entire meal there again...it all looks so good.
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My aunt is still getting to me, but I suppose today was a good day. I made her breakfast (scrambled eggs, banana/strawberry/blackberry smoothie, toast...and she microwaved some sausage). Then, when I got home from work we had a decent conversation. We do get along...it's just when she's around my mom that she really bothers me, and my mom is camping so everything's good.
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I wish I had a few more insightful thoughts, but I guess my day is consumed by work. I'm sure I'll have an experience tomorrow. I meet a lot of interesting people at Hope's Harvest and Nosh.
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I'm on good terms with a lot of people. I really like that. A positive attitude goes a long way. Nothing has changed about me recently, but everything is starting to pay off.
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Visit me at work tomorrow. 10-3:30 HH.