Span of Attention is Lacking Length

I don't have the patience for curls and neither does my hair...they don't fit my personality either, but I always like trying something different so I did. My hair is naturally pretty curly, but nobody ever sees that because it rarely turns out attractive. I'm sure you don't care...so I will move on.
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Yesterday was my idea of a PERFECT day. I slept in, but not too late, Read a beautiful book, Sat in the sun and chatted con one of my amigos. My parents and I are on very good terms...my mom even complimented my hair and gave me $10. Then my dad said I could do whatever today. I probably won't take advantage of this too much because I got about 3-4 hours of sleep last night.
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I'm in love...or at least I was. It was at Spano's grad party and I was on a date. He held my hand and we walked over to see the sheep. The date concluded with a hug because I'm not a slut.
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The after grad party was very fun...a little long for my short attention span, but still fun. Hypnotism never fails to impress. I also like randomly riding on scooters down a hallway with people I like, but don't spend a lot of my time with. There was old videos from when we were all either cute or awkward. One video I was cute...the other I was definately awkward. Oh well...I've learned that everyone has that time. I won a prize...like everyone...I'm glad my name was called a little sooner than some, but wish it was called a little sooner than others...but in the end it doesn't matter. I'm sure there was other fun stuff to chat about, but I had an energy drink and just remember shouting a lot.
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I slept at JDK's house. We semi-fell asleep watching Will & Grace...or at least we both closed our eyes and curled up at opposite ends of the couch-bed. He sounds like some kind of machine when he sleeps...it's not snoring...it's a loud exhale...just so you know.
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Over-all a good day. I've lost interest in this blog. Today I will migrate to Lake City to pasar some tiempo with my amigos.
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Who was I in love with?
Jared.
...but I've moved on...

Everyday is Saturday...I Like It

Who would need instructions on how to work a can of cheese?
Even if you had no clue...you could do basically 2 things: push on the top correctly or try to pry off the top (in which case I'm sure you would accidentally find the right way). And do you think there is a person out there that has cried out in fear: "What do I do with this slow moving string of cheese coming out of the top of this pressurized can that I am pressing against?!?!" I wonder about people sometimes...or maybe I just have a lot of experience with cheese in a can.
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Today I had a good day at home. Those are rare only because I get incredibly bored. For some reason today I just didn't. And looking back, I really did almost nothing. The highlights of my day included finishing a book I have been forever reading while putting some color into my skin via sun and receiving a text that was nice. I've also been watching Scrubs a lot lately. Perhaps my day was good just because the weather was really cheerful.
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The Virginia acquaintance I have sent me a quilt her grandma made me for my graduation present. It's really nice looking and warm. My cat utilized it for her nap today.
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Crab Rangoon, Wonton Soup, Seasame Chicken, Vegetable Lo Mein, Fortune Cookies...doesn't that all sound DELICIOUS? Pretty much anything in a cute little takeout box and chop sticks sounds amazing. I'm not sure why the Chinese created food that I randomly crave even though generally speaking don't find amazing...but they are smart...
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再见...that's goodbye in Chinese...I think?

Joy

Should a child be named after an emotion? Perhaps the child would feel obligated to feel that emotion...or perhaps they would turn out to be as loca as the girl I met today...I enjoy locas though. Joy is a tall slender woman with chin-length, dirty blonde hair with curls. She said I know her or that I should know of her...I was confused about this because I had never heard of her...and I am sure I would remember a woman who carried a fanny purse and wore a USA windjacket. She seemed nice. She does something behind or in a church.
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I love volunteering. Today was an unusual volunteer experience. I saw a lot of familiars and a lot of little girls with frizzy hair and big eyes. I even chatted with Rachel Balow...it's been awhile.
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I awoke to rain. My house was dark and quiet and smelled of summer. I decided to take pictures until my battery died.
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I also found out that good words can get you things. I don't mean this in a negative or selfish way either. I wrote a letter to the U because there was confusion and I wanted to have my orientation the 11th and 12th or I would have conflict with getting up there...they accepted my letter and it made my day today to find out that I will be having orientation with 2 of my lovely amigos.
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Today I texted someone that wasn't a regular. I turned in my PSEO grade. I forgave when I wasn't mad to begin with. I had a delicious smoothie from Hope's Harvest and a delicious Moolate at Dairy Queen. I discussed with a friend and made 2 new CDs for my car. I wish I knew my work schedule so I wouldn't have to keep my plans so tentative. My creative energy yesterday got me 2 paragraphs.
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Positive, Insightful, and Humorous energy to you.
And be glad your name isn't Anger or Rage.
Bye.

Running in the Rain

I was really lazy today. Tomorrow will be a productive day as well as the rest of the summer.
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I watched a really lame movie today. My mom thought it was hilarious, but that's just because she likes Kevin James as well as weird humor. It's a good movie if you are in 4th grade.
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I went for a run in the rain after running 1/2 mile on the treadmill. I felt amazing after that and I got some creative energy.
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1 goal on my list of things to do in my life is to write a novel. I have started that novel today. Hopefully I actally finish this one.
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People are too critical for fun activities. For the scavenger hunt picture thing JDK and I had a lot of fun...then after we put them on facebook people started being annoying...in the beginning JDK and I thought it would be fun to win...just for the sake of winning...now I wish there wasn't a winner at all because then people wouldn't get so loco. Oh well I guess...I really don't care. I'm pretty proud of our work.
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Have a good day tomorrow! I will be saving the world by volunteering at the library. Should be a good time.
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Inspirational Monday

The day she told me I was wrong was the day everything in my life began to change.
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When I was really young...around the age of 4...I was popular by the "city kids" of Zumbro Falls standards. It was when I was completely 100% myself. I would play in the mud, catch bugs, and go to the playground every day. Other kids would always knock on my door and ask me to play with them or ask me to be the brave one to pick up a bug for some strange reason.
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When I got to elementary school I realized that I had to "fit in" and by 4th grade I had changed myself...I tried to be like everyone else around me and tried to like the things that they liked. It wasn't exactly who I was, but I didn't realize I was changing so much. I was always around people that would look at you funny if you did anything different.
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By 7th grade I felt really lost. I had lots of friends and I had a good life, but I actually found myself not studying because I didn't think it was "cool". I had finally saw myself as a person trying to fit in rather than an actual person.
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One day I said something that she didn't agree with. We went on to discuss ideas and I realized that in order to be more confident...I need an actual personality...I can't depend on others for what I want out of life. From then on I stuck with friends that all taught me different things as well as taught me to be more outgoing and different. I felt more comfortable about everything and could even say how I felt without worrying about whether or not people would agree, because the truth is...it doesn't matter.
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The librarians had given all the seniors a question "What is the most important thing you have learned in high school?" I never did get around to answer it, but if it were to be something it would be to stop worrying about what others think because being different is a lot more fun.
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Today I slept in, watched Scrubs, hung out with JDK, uploaded pictures, went to work, watched JDK & Kevin play tennis, dealt with more pictures, and came home to a short conversation with my mom.
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Things with my family are a little rough right now, but I feel like everything is going to work out. I enjoy spending time with my friends and work makes me feel productive. I don't think I would be where I am now if she hadn't told me I was wrong.
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Happy Memory Day!

Don't Just Stand There

I have been hearing "don't just stand there". It is a motto of my boss that looks like Resse Witherspoon as well as the theme for today's sermon in church.
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Friday was our retreat. I was a photographer for the yearbook and got lots of pictures of people and felt like a creeper. It was also an opportunity to claim that I have my last opportunity to hang out with everyone in our grade besides the fact I really only hung out with the people I care about. Later, I hung out with my posse and went to work...I was the hostess...I'm not a fan of that aspect of my job...I hope I don't do it very much.
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Saturday I attended a meeting for volunteering at the library this summer. It might get a little crazy, but it will look good and hopefully be fun. After I went to that I went on a scavenger hunt with JDK. We found everything on the list. It was super fun and we bonded. Then we met up with Mike and went to Ross's grad party. Then I went to work again and had the busiest day yet. It was awesome...I love busy nights. I have decided that Brady and I should work together all the time...we randomly chit chat when we have down time...which is only in the beginning.
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Today I attended a church party for the graduates. It was lame. I listened to a bunch of old ladies gossip about their Egg Bake and different people they know. Even my dad thought it was lame. Then we went to church. I find it hard to sit in church and not question everything now...and the more I listen...the more I find a lot of things ridiculous. When I got home I took a long overdue 4 1/2 hour nap. Then I did some overdue cleaning, made a delicious dinner, read, and chatted with JDK and Esteban. I find Esteban annoying me a lot and I'm not sure why I still find it necessary not to completely block him out of my life. I wish we could be friends, but the truth is...I don't think we would have been friends anyways if we didn't date.
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I love having a busy life. Alex Pyle and Miranda Nibbe recreated a titanic scene for JDK and I...Alex swam in a puddle.
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Hasta Banana!

Last Day of High School! Let the Future Begin!

Today is Thursday and that it was. I'm glad to be done with that school. There are some people I will miss, some things I wish I could still be a part of, but other people make me angry and I just don't want to see them anymore.
That's Adam Yotter and Jake Eichhorn. They are 2 of the best things to happen to peer tutoring ever. Adam made me a card saying that I'm awesome...it was nice.
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1st-6th hour really weren't that bad. It was the moment my camera died that things started going down hill. Or actually the moment I exchanged words with Patrick Ryan and Whitney Gerkin. I strongly dislike them.

That's Bri laughing. She's a loca.
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Tomorrow shall be fun. I will see these lovelys again. I have many more pictures to share. So I promise a picture for each blog for a long time.
Have a good Thursday! (If that's possible)
Hasta Ya Basta!
P.S. Bri's video took a LONG time to upload if that means anything to you.

Iced Coffee Leads to Energy

I close my eyes and shelter them
From the fear.
I slowly take my right foot
And hold it over the edge,
Dangling my toes.
I walk off the edge,
Falling into the pool of risks.
I hold my breath
And hope
That there are no sharp rocks at the bottom
Or cold water
Numbing my toes
Waiting to punish my mistake.
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My cat and I have a lot in common. Or just 2 things. One being that we both claim the same mother-like thing...only I was born out of her...my cat was just driven in a car for an hour by her. So I win there. Another thing is that we are both angel-like in the day...and ninjas by night. Or at least mine is set on a schedule...her ninja-like qualities can appear at any given moment.
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I took a rather big risk applying at Nosh...just as I have taken many risks throughout the past 2 years. I feel like they have made me a more outgoing person and have led me toward the person I see myself being. I'm not quite there, but I am sure that this job will get me there. It was a risk worth taking and one of the greatest experiences I have ever had.
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Ankur showed me the bar today. It was really amazing...mainly him...because he's really nice and funny. He made me ice coffee which was the most amazing coffee thing ever. I also love Lynn and Coreen...they train me in. The chef gave Jess and I a sample of the Gnocci which was amazing...I don't even like dumplings, but this scratched that idea completely...they could make a shoe taste good if they wanted. I love my job...and it won't be the last time you hear that.
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School is over tomorrow. Sooooooo excited as you know. Today was rather lame, but whatever...quick run through: Studied...Lake City Tour...Took a Latin test that bitch-slapped me in the face...Peer Tutored (Adam and Jake make me laugh)...Finished Statistics project and took a walk to Jad's mom's store and she fed us brownies...chatted with Tom and shared a good laugh. Hung out with JDK at Hope's Harvest...went to work...end.
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I smell Lilacs in my house. It's lovely. My cat rests at the top of the recliner next to my mom's head. They are practically one being.
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Goddess by day. Ninja by night. I took the jump off the edge into the pool of risks and I was lucky to find warm refreshing waters, free of sharp rocks.
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Have a lovely evening and morning.
Hasta Banana!

Sleeping Walking Among the Spiders

I sleepwalk in the world of the awake.
My care slips away and I lose my balance.
Clawing at the ground.
Pulling at the grass and hoping
That it will pull me to safety,
And everything just might be okay.
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I encountered that spider as I was studying outside today. It was gross. Really gross. Spiders are definately my worst fear. Especially when they aren't on the ground. I'm always scared they are going to jump on me. Bleh.
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There's also a cool looking picture of my cat. She's the devil in cat form. I also have a scary picture of her, but I'll save that for another day. I thought I would show the nicer side of her because it does exist sometimes. Whatever.
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I have a Latin test tomorrow. I really want to do well. Like really really. I got a B+ for a grade first semester. I hope to do better on this final than my semester final because that was terrible. Ego scripsi litteras mihi means I wrote a letter to myself. I'm not sure when I will ever use that because...well...I don't do that. But oh well.
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2 days. 2 days until school is over. gahhh I have a massive list of things to do. Mr. Brott and Mr. Kohutko are the only locos that are making us do anything. Stupid boys. Ms. Kopp doesn't like boys...or at least the ones in our advisory.
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Part of my posse will be gone tomorrow. That makes me triste, but at least I have the other 33.3%. I like my friends. I look forward to Friday and Saturday when I get to spend some time with them that isn't school.
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I will be a ninja tomorrow night.
WaaaaCHA *slap slap*

I Wish I Lived in a Tuscan Inspired House

I imagine myself living in a house like that someday. It's so beautiful. I also want to have a fountain inside my house in a meditation room because it is definately my favorite sound.
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Today I went to Mayo to explore careers I know I won't pursue. It was nice to escape the school though and I did make new friends. I'm not sure why I just decided this year to make more friends...especially with only 3 days left. Anyways I talked to Vinny today, and while I had always just seen him from a distance and thought of him as talented but annoying...he seems to be nice when he doesn't have his sidekick...perhaps he's nice with him too...but he's much calmer without him.
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I was really tired and Megan and I slept on the way back. It was nice to take a nap...I haven't done that in a long time.
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I'm glad the weather is warming up. Megan scares easily when you poke her during a nap. Everytime I do my little skip hop run thing it makes Tom's day. I got a free pen...not as fancy as some people's but at least mine works. I had a conversation with Mr. Olson, but we were talking about 2 different days...I don't know how what I said made sense to him, but he seemed to understand even though I was talking about today rather than yesterday. Whatever..I have my NHS hours. I almost witnessed a car hitting head on with a semi this morning...people are ridiculously stupid and are always in a hurry.
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I'm so frickin' excited to be done with school. Lorda Lorda Lorda 3 dias mas!
Tomorrow will be a good and productive day.
Remind me to pay Megan.
Good day. Good night.
Good everything.
Ciao!

A Blog For Two

This weekend has been crazy busy. My house was used as a bed and that was all. It was an absolutely amazing weekend, but I wish I had more sleep and a day to rest my legs.
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-Yesterday I volunteered at Hope's Harvest. It was really fun...I like the coffee shop atmosphere and feeling like I helped.
-I also hung out with JDK. We went to Rabbit's so I could see where Nosh gets their bread.
-Then we met up with Mike and went out for Chinese. It was a grand time with good food and I just remembered I left my Chinese in Mike's refrigerator, which I knew would happen when he offered to let me keep it there.
-After that I went to work and got a workout. I love my job so much. I have something to do constantly so it goes by amazingly fast. The only problem is that when it's all over I feel stressed with minor tasks. I saw some more amazing food. If you're going for amazing look try the Marlin...it's beautiful.
-After work I hung out with JDK and Mike some more...we played regular Bananas and Dirty Bananas...it was hilarous.
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Today I went to the AIDS walk in the cities. I rode the transit. Saw crazily energetic and enthusiastic people. Walked 6.2+ miles. Got lots of free snacks. It was really fun. My legs kill now though.
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I've realized things about myself from my relations with other people:
-My hate list is only temporary...it can be proven wrong at any given moment.
-When I'm stressed I don't enjoy being around people I normally do or my parents, but that's a given.
-I don't like people to say I'm in a bad mood/crabby/mean...it just doesn't help anything.
-I say things that people take personally...even though I don't mean any of it.
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I always thought that I was a patient person, but I think I need to work on developing more of it.
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I love my friends. I like what my life is turning into. I'm frustrated with some things, stressed about others. It's becoming easier to focus on each individual day. 4 more days of high school...and Holy Lorda I'm glad it's almost done.
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Sorry this was so long.
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I could have said "Zitch Dog" a million times today at the park. If you were there I would be winning by a lot more. But you weren't.
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Her doinker boinked his yoinker.

Insightful Not Inspitefull

Somedays I wonder who I would be if I had made the other choice in some major choices in my life, or if others had done things differently.
-What if he had not moved away?
-What if I had stayed friends with them?
-What if she had not corrected my opinion?
-What if I had chosen the other him to be with 1 1/2 years?
-What if I had not left the house that day?
-What if I had just asked what time to come in on Christmas Day?
-What if I had met any single person at a different time in my life?

I believe that all of those questions and many more would have dramatically changed my life if they had gone the opposite way they did. I would rather have looked back on them and wonder if I would have ended up a failure than have taken those decisions and wonder if I would have been a success because I am truly happy with how everything worked out even if I might not have thought that at the moment.
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I had one of the most insightful conversations I have had with a friend in quite a long time...it lasted for about 4-5 hours. I would share some of the things I learned, but I really keep that sort of stuff to myself and disclose that stuff only when in the right setting.
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I heard the perfect wording for what I want out of life in terms of being known: I want to be respected and have my name out there but not be noticed when walking down the street.
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Enough insight for one night. The "not in spite full" aspect of my blog would be rather than complaining about the people in my life and the lameness of my school day...I would rather list the people that made each of them good:

Spanish: The people that delivered our winnings, Meghan Streed
Biology: Sam J
Study Hall: Chris, Mike
Media Design: Mike
Peer Tutoring: Jake, Adam, Cody
AP Lit: JDK
Stats: Tom
In Between Classes/Lunch: Amanda Foster, Pat E (even though I don't respect the way he eats)
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I'm home alone. I have been a little freaked out tonight even though I'm not usually like that. Whatever. I will live. I am afterall a goddess by day and a ninja by night.
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"Quick! Make this conversation more exciting in the next 3 minutes."
"Boobs."
"Wow. Done."

Mamma Mia Ninja Ninja

I am a ninja.
I serve coffee and you don't notice me,
But I'm polite and have amazing etiquette.
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Today I had a horrible school day. Practically the only person to make me smile much was Chris. It was unexpected, but delightful...we bonded today.
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I had a stressful after school. I had to buy clothes for work that met their satisfaction and be back in Lake City by 5 so I can be back and beautiful at 5:30.
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I LOVE my job. I love the people there. Love the food. Love the everything. It seriously was perfect. I missed supper, but didn't care at all because it was so amazing. I was also standing so long that my legs quivered at the choir concert. But I don't care because I LOVE MY JOB.
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I also love my friends. They have amazing singing abilities. Specifically Mike and Jared were my two favorite performers. Everyone did a good job, but they were lovely. Bri and Jared also did beautiful Chorography. Bessie looked gorgeous. I wish I was Steph so I could play bass. I wish I was Abbey so I could play piano. (Both Guitar and Piano are on my list of things to do/learn in my life). Nathan Frye looked exotic. Kevin was nice. Jess was nice. Everyone was just nice. Mike also won an awesome award...yay...I was so happy.
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Enough of that. I have some food studying to do. Did you know bread is crazy to memorize...I forget the Toasted Red Pepper Feshhahahhlalalala (it starts with an "F" but I don't remember what it was)...there were also 3 others...but only I would care about that. I got to sample food. But anyways I already talked about my job and I have people to chat with and things to study and muchos cosas to do.
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Adios!

Mike and the Like

Let me start off by telling you a story about a promise I didn't keep and a dream I had last night. Mike asked to be mentioned in yesterday's blog, but I forgot. I later had a dream last that he yelled at me for it. So this blog is dedicated to one of my best friends: Mike Trost.

Mike is a delight.
Girls faint when he's in sight.
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Today was an eventful day. It was orientation at my job. I love the people that work there. They are so professional yet funny. My favorite moment was when my boss referred to each of us as ninjas...and gave us a ninja speech. We are quick, efficient, and aren't noticed when we fill coffee and change silverware. We also dress in all black. We are ninjas who are ninja-like. We also got an instruction manual that is quite intimidating, but it's much more organized than anything that the nursing home ever gave me. I like it. I also have to work on memorizing all food from their menu, and food terms from "The Food Lover's Companion" as well as have a lot of knowledge about wine. It will turn into a lot of daily studying. I have a test on all this stuff before I can actually waitress. Crazy, but nice.
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Tonight was also scholarship night. I'll be brief because I am quite sick of hearing about it. I got 3 scholarships: Zumbro Falls Sportsmen's Club, Zumbro Falls Lions, and Eastern Star. I was really pleasantly surprised. I was also happy that there were a variety of people getting them because I like when lots of people get stuff. Spread the wealth.
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I took 3 Spanish tests. Kelsey Fick is a crow. Bri is awkward. Tom is good at Tetris. My mom is weird.
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In conclusion: Mike is amazing. Mike is talented and nearly God-like. I hope this mentioning of him will stop the nightmares of him yelling at me.
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Off to bed. Sweet dreams to you.

Moovie Day

Hellola,
Today was a movie day. In Biology it was 90 minutes of Gattaca...which is an interesting movie, but a long time to just sit there. Then in AP Lit it was 90 minutes of Young Frankenstein...also a good movie, but the same 90 minute thing.
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I do not enjoy going to sleep at night. I would rather just take a 2 hour nap at different times during the course of a day whenever I felt I needed rest.
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My mom added "Reading Lord of the Flies" to her list of things to do in her life. My list is a lot different than hers. I'm not sure how we ended up so different, but I want to experience everything around the world...not just things that I can do in my house like hers. I guess she's happy like that...and I'm happy the way I have things planned.
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I start my first day of work tomorrow. I am so frickin' excited...I wish I could work there every day (or at least that's what I think now)...I just like the idea of it so much. I hope it goes as well as I think it will...usually when I'm this excited for something it does go that way..so yay. Then it's awards night...and I'll have to listen to my parents gossip when I get home. Bleh. I wish everyone got at least one scholarship...that would make me happy.
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My mom forwarded me an email that somebody from MY life had sent her...she thought it was just as odd as I did. I called somebody today and they were mildly confused when they heard my voice at the other end, but it worked out. I have about 7 days of high school left...that's so exciting. I also have an NHS meeting tomorrow as well as having A LOT of crap to get done this week.
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Wish me luck as I wish you luck.
Hasta Banana

Oh How I Wish It Were Summer!

I sat down in my chair to study.
Before I knew it my head was on the book
And I was getting beat over the head.
I awoke with a jerk and my heart was racing.
Then I fell back asleep
Realizing it was a dream.
I awoke again and feel like I have slept for 10 years
And continue to feel like I got beat over the head.
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I have one more important test...and that is Latin. I need to study for the next week...I need to study a lot. I need to care, but my brain is shutting down.
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I can't wait till awards night is over. I'm so sick of hearing about scholarships. It's just an excuse for people to think they are better than other people. Somebody asked me if I got one today...only they asked it in a way that made me feel like I didn't deserve one. Screw them...I got one and I prefer not to tell it to the world.
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The AP Bio test was a bit ridiculous...the multiple choice was the easy part...I'm fairly confident I passed that part, but seriously the free-response questions completely bitch-slapped me in the face. It doesn't bother me though...I went into it thinking I wouldn't pass...so if I do pass it will just be a pleasant surprise.
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Peer Tutoring was really fun. Kevin, Bri, Adam Yotter, and I just joked around and made jokes. I worked on my Spanish 4 while they worked on their stuff...Spanish 4 is ridiculous. In AP Lit. I listened to a bunch of people freak out over what movie to watch for our film study...thank god it ended in Young Frankenstein because nobody was heartbroken. In Statistics I signed up for the AIDS walk, studied Spanish a little, read my book, and then signed up for Award's Night in the office.
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When I was driving home I watched the clouds and saw they looked like a variety of things. My favorite was one that looked like a snail. I should probably stop daydreaming and focus, but my mind is ready for the year to end.
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I made a friend last night. It was a good time. I'm glad.
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The Biggest Loser Finale is on tomorrow night. I'm excited to see Tara win and Ron to leave.
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End

Nothing of Interest

Metabolism of which of
the following molecules results
in the greatest net usable energy
per gram?
A. A triglyceride
B. A tripeptide
C. An alpha-linked disaccharide
D. A beta-linked disaccharide
E. An anabolic steroid

I didn't know either...
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Tomorrow is our AP Biology test...while I feel like I know a lot about Biology and feel like I know enough to deserve the college credit...questions like that keep showing up randomly and I feel like it won't go how I want it to. The first practice test went well though...so perhaps it will be like that? I hope.
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I studied for about 5 hours so far today...don't expect this blog to be at all interesting, insightful, or funny...my brain hurts.
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I texted. I watched Will & Grace while studying. I remembered Twister. My mom liked her present. I facebook chatted for someone even though I never do that. I wish I lived in Lake City so I could hang out with people more often.
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Stop! 'Cause I really love you.
Esca-LATER.
Mwah

Tengo Buenas Noticias!

I noticed two birds in a tree
Just looking at each other,
And looking at the sunset.
In the moment I wanted that.
But the truth is
I'm dead on the inside.
I like the idea of love,
but it's so much work.
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I took that picture.
As well as the new one for my blog title...
as well as some more.
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Today was amazing.
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I got a call.
It was Tiffany from Nosh.
I have a job.
It is Wednesday 4-5:30.
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I probably have more to say,
but I'll leave you in suspense.
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Zitch Dog!....
but not really...
I would text you if it was.
You know who you are.

I Love You To Crockpot

I love you to crock pot.
That is a lot.
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Hours 1-4 were bad hours....luckily hours 5-7 were just lovely so it was a good day. My after school plans were also a success.
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Pretty sure Cody Vonier, Jake Eichhorn, and Adam Yotter were the ones to make my day better...they were strangely creepy, but made me laugh. Right Hand Puse. Left Hand Pusimos.
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I went to Hopes Harvest after dropping Mike off for work. Susan Draves gave me free Mocha Coffee Stuff...it was good. We chatted and I studied Biology.
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I went to Subway...enough said. Pretty sure the guy that made my sandwich thinks I'm funny....or weird....but whatever.
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I have 2 super awesome friends....and some friends that I like, but don't talk to quite as much and don't have nearly as many inside jokes...and I have some friends that annoy me much, but I still kind of like them. I don't mind this situation...except for the constant annoyance. Ooo and I have also been making friends with the lesser knowns...thank god for that....or not?
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I saw a movie that made me laugh. Enough said. I walked in the rain, in the dark...with friends...how refreshing is that?
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I know you don't give a shit, but I give a shit! I give A LOT of shit!
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Twister.
Buenos Nachos.

I Said I Love You Today...I'll Say I Love You Again

The clouds looked like popcorn as I was driving home.
The sky looked as blue as the ocean and it hurt my eyes as the sun gleamed off of the letter N hanging from my mirror.
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Today was a nice Thursday....as compared to those nasty Thursdays where everything goes wrong....I almost hit a bird on my way into school...I figured that would be what goes wrong...but I missed it....which makes that story a lot less interesting.
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I took an AP Lit. test...there was a couple of drama queens, but that's normal. I thought it was fairly easy...then again I like English and writing so it's rare to find me complaining about such things. The 4 hours went fast...and I had no headache. I'm not sure if the AP Bio test Monday will be as easy for me...but I will continue to study lots and hopefully things will work to my advantage.
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Mr. Heise called today and talked to each individual in our AP class....it actually kind of made my day...it was really nice and thoughtful. I wish he was coming back, but I guess it's better for his health....he's the only teacher I know for sure I will try to keep in contact with after I graduate...the rest I'm not sure.
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I went Mother's Day shopping with Mike in the antique store...we came across a lot of random crap, a bunch of creepy dolls, and lots of interesting things that we liked to look at, but would never buy. I spent some money on my mother and I think she will be pleased. Mike bought a doll just so you all know...but in his defense it was more attractive than the others, a "brand" that his mother likes, as well as the fact it was for his mother and not him.
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Statistics was the only class I had today...we were productive. Otherwise it twas test, delivered lunch in a brown bag which JDK told Pyle was Crack and Prostitutes, listened to the Calculus class talk about their future plans, and an hour of AP Lit. nothingness...which was nice.
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I have plans for tomorrow. I get the house to myself this weekend...too bad I will spend it studying. My illness has subsided and I have not received a phone call. I can half smell and desperately want to hear the ring of the phone.
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Speaking of phone...my mother wanted me to do some laundry...I had better start doing that.

I Love Raindrops

I love the feeling of being outside just after a rainstorm.

When the sun has awakened and peers out from behind the clouds.

And the plants are freshened by a glaze of cool rain.

When everything seems to take on a deeper shade of green.

I love the feeling of laying in fresh white sheets.

With the scent of a vanilla candle luming in the air.

A cup of steaming tea sitting on a table next to a soft bed.

The windows speckled with raindrops that have collected.

I love the feeling of staring into the sky on a clear dark night.

When the stars are bright and glowing above your head.

Laying in the grass without a fear in the world.

Expecting to be able to fly away if you close your eyes.

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I wish my daydreams could become reality. I wish that I could let everything in the world go and not have any fear...no worries...or pain. I wish that whenever I dream this daydream of raindrops I didn't quickly relate it to the fact that my eyes are dripping with tears from my tickled nose and stuffy sickness. I wish I could escape the loud people, the people that complain of their problems that really aren't significant at all, and the people that are so set on their ways they have no ability to open their mind and let new ideas in. I wish I could rest my eyes and stop my thoughts. I wish there were more hours in a day to accomplish everything I want.

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My days have become relaxing, but reality is they all have a calming about them before the storm truly hits. One of those storms takes place tomorrow at 8am. I feel well prepared, self-confident, and positive...but I can't help but think 10 more minutes of literary terms, 5 more minutes looking at Spark Notes, or just a minute to gather my thoughts and grasp some creative energy.

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I wish I wish I wish...eventually...I will.

A Slight Barrier in the Wellness of my Health

I should be peer tutoring some Spanish-speaking souls right now, but instead am sitting at home recovering from a killer cold, watching Will & Grace, and studying a little.
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I slept from 4pm yesterday until 9:30am today with exception of hour long wake-up periods that only happend about twice.
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I really have nothing to say besides the fact that all my classes today are independent study anyways so I am missing nothing, and the fact that I am bored and actually look forward to coming back to school tomorrow to see my favorite people.
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AP Lit test is Thursday. 3 or better here I come.

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"Diane doesn't have kabobs...she's a girl...she has a kagina."

Fa Lalalala Pra Prom Prom Prom

Lots of things happend in my life this weekend.

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-Had a job interview...it went well...and I love the guy who interviewed me.

-Went to Nathan's house to change for prom and then had a photoshoot with him and his mom.

-Went to Bri's and had amazing food. Her mom is an amazing cook as well as everyone who helped.

-Went to Patton Park for more pictures...too many pictures...but at least we captured every moment.

-Went to Dairy Queen and chatted.

-Went random driving with Nathan, JDK, and Holly. I like Holly...she's my cousin, but we really have hardly talked. Nathan was also very entertaining.

-Went to a cemetary to form a game plan.

-Went to BK for a bathroom break.

-Grand March

-Dance

-Mike's

-Sleepover

-Visited Hope's Harvest

-Got bad news from a text message...I hope everything works out okay...I trust that it will, but there's always that chance.

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I realized that yesterday my patience level was amazing. I talked to people that I usually don't like or have never talked to and they weren't so bad (with exception of 3 people). I made some friends, improved some friendships, and embraced some friendships. We may have a new member to our posse. I also realized I had a lot better Prom than last year because I wasn't focusing just on one person, I had some space, and my date was very entertaining.

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I'm going to start caring a lot more. I did decide that Friday, but tomorrow I'm going to embrace that. I'm very sad my favorite teacher will not be teaching the rest of this year...I'm going to get an awesome score on my AP test for him...because he's an awesome teacher and has taught us so much.

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I have a very sore throat....very very sore....my mom said I looked sick....I hate admitting that I'm sick...so I won't...not yet.

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Amazing Prom. Amazing after prom. Glad to be dressed casually. My senior year has had some of the greatest moments of my life...and some of the worst....it has been the most memorable year so far. I look forward to finishing it off, having an amazing summer, and then escaping to Minneapolis.

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End.

Today was a Day

Today was a day.
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School felt weird. It was nice to have a day of nothing, but really....really I just want it to be done. Adam Yotter probably did the best job at making me laugh today in school.
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Car crash thing...better than I originally thought....less better than it had later been talked up to be. Some things could have been edited, but I understand the work. That "host-like" lady made me laugh. Who needs to raise there hand to show they are wearing a red shirt? Just look at the shirt.
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"Today....everyone in Lake City died........emotionally."
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It also started off with her listing off the sponsers....she read them very dramatically...it very well could have been the whole show and it would have convinced me to make good decisions.
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I went to Roch with JDK, Kevin, and Jared. I like the people that I like. I also got some pictures.
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Went to Mike's house...I enjoy him...and the people that I like.
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Tomorrow is prom. Tomorrow is the new date of my job interview (for sure). Tomorrow will be stressful. Tomorrow will be fun. I hate repitition so I'm not sure why I said tomorrow so much. Anyways I look forward to things to come...not as much as some others...but enough to smile...especially if I am employed tomorrow.
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Make smart choices.
Ciao