DRA-MAT-IC VOICEEEEE!

Guess what?
I had an AMAZING day.
And by AMAZING I mean my stress level was at 0.
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-I woke up at 10.
-Ran what I use to (it killed me, but I did it).
-Ate healthy.
-Cleaned my room.
-Figured out my work schedule.
-Figured some other things out.
-Spent some wonderful time with my friends...including some unusuals...and by unusual I mean people I like a lot, but aren't my usuals.
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I'd say my life is back on track.
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In other news I work tomorrow...ha...In other news part 2 I'm hosting a bonfire tomorrow. What's this? Complications? Oh well, what's new. I think I get off at 6 though...I hope I get off at 6...I hope I hope I hope I get off at 6. I also hope it doesn't rain...bleh...as much as I love a good thunderstorm...it shall not rain on my fire.
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I played Rock Band for the first time ever...I've never even seen this game in action (lame I know)...the images I had in my head were much more exciting, but it was still fun anyways. Until Mehmet came...then the energy just died. Like him, but his energy is a downer.
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I also watched Mike play Super Smash Brothers on Wii. Pretty EX-CIT-ING *dramatic voice* It had lots of explosions and stuff I didn't understand, but I enjoy video games to a certain extent.
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I'm catching up on the So You Think You Can Dance episode I missed today...god, I love that show...I have a slight (and by slight I mean slight) crush on Johnathan and this other dark haired dreamy. Don't worry...it won't work out.
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To Tom:
I'm taking French next year so I will soon understand your silly translations. I also hope we hang out more because it sounds like you've been insanely lame. I will see you tomorrow.
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Perhaps I will be seeing the rest of you tomorrow as well...besides those unlocals. Thank-you to all who contributed to my amazing day today. =)

Bring on the Thunda

A waste of time.
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That was what today was...
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I enjoyed So You Think You Can Dance and later sitting outside to watch the lightning.
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I love thunderstorms. I love driving in a nice rain. I didn't drive today, nor did I enjoy my drive in the rain yesterday, but generally speaking it's one of the most relaxing things ever.
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I'm frustrated with work. I feel like I'm failing even though I have done almost nothing wrong. I have higher expectations of myself than I am fulfilling. I love my job, but hate how it's been. I haven't worked since Saturday and that was extra busy...I really want more time to prove myself...I haven't been an S.A. since I first started and I feel like I need the practice. I've had numerous nightmares about everything I fear. I translated some of these fears on a dream website...this is what they came up with:
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~To dream that you are late, denotes your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future. You feel time is running out and that you do not have time to accomplish all the things you want.
~To see a mess in your dream, symbolizes the state of your waking life. You need to get your life in order.
~To dream that you are under stress, reflects the stress that you are experiencing in your waking life. The stress has carried over into your dream state. Even in your sleep, you may be unable to relax. The dream may call attention to setbacks, obstacles, self-doubts, criticism that you are facing in some waking situation or relationship. You are on the verge of breaking down and need to take some leisure time off to distance yourself from these issues.
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These ideas came from 2 different dreams, both dealing with my job. In one I dreamed I was 13 minutes late which therefore lead me to be fired. In another Ankur was gone and I had to run the bar. I had some unexpected guests that stole some of the liquor as well as broke and spilled everything. In both dreams I had a crazy amount of stress. I even woke up from the dream I got fired in a cold sweat, breathing really heavy, and ready to cry. Everything the website said is EXACTLY how I feel.
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I want August to come so bad. It's an exciting month where I will know exactly how things are in my job, I'm taking a trip to Seattle with which I will have the opportunity to escape the stress of a lot of other things in my life, I will also be experiencing more indepence and getting ready for collge. Though, I don't feel like I'm prepared for the month of August. I have way too much to do, and I'm not in the state of mind to handle August.
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I missed volunteering at the library yesterday, it completely slipped my mind...or at least I lost track of the date.
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Starting tomorrow it is a new month...not for the rest of the world, but for me. It shall be called Junly. I've been trying to work out more, but have found I am completely out of shape...screw that, tomorrow is day 3 and I'll get back to my usual. I'm also sticking to eatting healthier. BK twice in 12 hours just isn't okay...I've hardly had BK twice in my life...let alone twice in 12 hours. I've also been kind of a downer on myself...that has to stop...because I know so long as I get back into things everything will work out. These are just a few of my many goals for the new month of Junly.
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I must not stay up past 1 and not wake up later than 10...I have been ridiculous. I apologize because that's not me...
This is though...with my amigo Mike:

Damn, it's raining outside... =)

Hangover

For a day that was actually overall very good I realized some depressing things.
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I've always wanted to prove some people in my life wrong...more than a healthy amount actually.
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I've always wanted to prove that I have changed. I no longer want to be shy, quiet, or a follower. I'll probably always be those things a little bit, but I've always been really determined to change those things. I don't want to be sterotyped...and I realized that my goal by senior year of completely changing this never really happend.
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The only thing I really want out of life is respect. Someday I would like people to listen because I've gone all my life using humor as my way of communicating when I feel defeated. There's things that I like about this method and things that I hate. I like it because it keeps me from drama and people thinking things are worse than they actually are...because I hate arguements. Besides my parents I've only been in arguments with about 3-4 people...and they were minor arguments. The bad thing about my method is you can confuse my sarcasm with my defeated mood. I find it difficult for anyone to truly understand the difference, but I hope that if they're around me enough they'll learn.
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I hope someday I can show how much intelligence I really have. How strong of a person I really am. That I do have the ability to stand in front of a group of people and give a good presentation or make people laugh. How much talent I really have and that someday people will have a conversation with me and not have to argue with it or have an opinion, but just look at me and say "yeah...you're right" or something along those lines. I like a good debate, but I haven't actually had a moment where I've really felt truly respected. Someday perhaps...
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On a lighter note...I really did have a good day. I was in a really good mood for 90-95% of it...and I also saw a hilarious movie that I can actually remember and use quotes from. Not to mention I saw a person who actually said, "Is that frickin' Little Miss Sunshine? She actually looks like a frickin' member of society."
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I need a sodapop...

Tigers love pepper...

They hate cinnamon...

Foe-Toes

Day 2

Did you know 3 of my friends are on the Master Cleanse?
Did you know that whenever I go to eat I think of them not eatting?
...Which therefore leads me to think of starving kids in Africa
...Which therefore leads me to think of my 3 friends next to starving kids in Africa.
I really don't need to experience the Master Clease...unless they figure out that it does something amazing in the end, because I have already begun eatting healthier because the image I get before I go to eat really doesn't make me desire anything I don't need. Except for yesterday at Nicole's grad party...when I consumed about 5-10 of her desserts...they tasted good, but really weren't satisfying. Anyways...they have 8 more days...but I'm sure it will take a while before I get this image out of my head.
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I also realized that when I go to town I hang out with 1 or both of my 2 main people. They are both on this Master Cleanse. I also realized that when I go to town I usually eat with them...I will be doing no such thing. I might eat around them, or away from them when they are in the area, but eatting WITH them is not an option. Oh well.
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Yesterday I went to Nicole's with Mike. It was fun. Not GREAT fun, but I enjoy him and Nicole and Scott. I'm not a fan of people that don't understand how to start a fire. Or people that don't understand English grammar or Intelligent humor. Oh well. I know they are nice people because I used to be good friends with 2 of them.
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Today I took a lazy day. I made a list of things to do though because otherwise I would get bored and I did most of my list. So I finished all my thank-yous and tomorrow I will be addressing them and then mailing them. I was pretty anti-social today though...unfortunately my mom was social. We didn't mix very well, but no major arguments were created. I have so much stuff on my mind it depresses me...I wish all my problems were solved...but I've discovered that's impossible so I will take one day at a time.
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If you want to get me out of my house tomorrow...please do...but I need a good excuse to drive and waste gas...so come up with an awesome idea and then call or text me. =)
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Lilac
Pronounced lahy-lahk
Or lahy-lak?
You tell me...
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Peace

My Photography of Lake City & In My House

Blah Blah Blah The Squirrels Are Fighting

I saw the University of Minnesota for the first time between yesterday and today. It is so beautiful...I'm satisfied with my blind guessing in a college. My schedule is awesome. Thursdays will be my favorite day of the week...Mondays and Wednesdays will be a little on the crazy side. I am double majoring in Spanish and Psychology.
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I am taking:
Beginning French
Intro. Psychology
Humanities in the West I
Spanish 1003
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I met a friend and a half...I say half because I can't remember his name...but we carried on a lengthy conversation and it was nice.
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I also met a girl named Gina. Gina is quiet, has a sweet haircut that got her to a competition in L.A. She likes German and History, and um...well that's the important stuff. I can almost guarentee I won't see her again, but at least I know I'm capable of meeting people. It was nice that I was super tired and her personality is kind of like the tired version of me...just the fact that she's quiet and unenthusiastic. We both can't sing or dance either (or so she says...we never did find out), we didn't exchange a lot of words, but we did hang out the whole time, roomed together, and we both looked at each other funny when our group leader mentioned a singing war game. But, that's enough about her...perhaps we will meet up again someday...perhaps not.
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I also noticed at the U of M that there are a lot of Lake City look-alikes.
I met:
-Ashley Eichelberger's close to identical twin
-Ashley Hans & Michelle Dick's combination (with a spice of the Bobbi Falde face)
-Terence Pettis's close to identical twin with matching personality & football skills
-Tommy Keller's curly haired twin complete with polo & computer in hand
-What would you get if you put Ms. Mgrath (or however you spell it), Laura Berktold (with extra length to her hair and an aged face), and a little bit of loca con ADD into a blender and shaped the contents into human form. She is my advisor.
-Kaliee Draz with an oval shaped face instead of a heart shaped face
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I have a new favorite ice cream flavor (imagine whirled peace). I have a slight crush on 2 guys on So You Think You Can Dance (don't worry I won't be a loser about it). I learned about Diversity, STDs, and Rape complete with STD dance. My advisor randomly inserts comments about squirrels & birds into the conversation, she also watches a live video of a sleeping dog that doesn't move...she's a bit ridiculous...her name is Claudia. The U has some strong crazy liberals that have tainted viewpoints. Some of their arguments were good with the stuff they have actually experienced, but their view on alcohol was a little awkward.
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Tomorrow I am a ninja. I might miss people's grad parties. Hope you aren't too disappointed.
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Sweet Dreams to you. I can't wait to ACTUALLY have sleep =) & God I've been eatting terrible...a health diet is on my way for the sake of not killing myself with crap.
Ciao!

To See the U for the First Time...

Today was a good day.
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I slept in really late because I stayed up till 3 watching Anastasia and doing laundry. But, that meant I had less to do today and it worked.
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As far as Grad Thank-Yous...I did 3. I didn't have the creative vibe and I didn't want to write anything stupid. They will get done Saturday. I promise.
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After I did the lame stuff such as finishing laundry and writing thank-yous, I played Super Nintendo again with my mom. Pretty sure my cousin brought those games back to life and I will be playing them a bit more than usual.
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Then I went to Lake City with my mom because I had been craving a certain kind of tea from Hope's Harvest. She got her meat from Huttels and gas from Kwik Trip...then I showed her Hope's Harvest, introduced her to Nathan, and then she got some coffee and tea. It was a good time. Then while we were there I decided to give her a tour of Nosh because she had never been there. She wants to take my aunt from New York there.
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Tonight I spend the night at Mike's house and then tomorrow we are going to the cities for Orientation at the U of M. I'm really excited. I want a good schedule. I don't really care what days I have class or even if I have a lot of classes...I just want classes that aren't boring for my 1st Semester so I can get into the studying vibe. I also want to sign up for French...it would help me in a variety of ways...plus it's so beautiful. =)
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Anyways I won't be back until Friday sometime. So hopefully you don't miss me too much.
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So You Think You Can Dance is on tonight...it is one of few reality shows I will admit to truly loving...I wish I could dance...someday perhaps.
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Goodbyeeee

How Good of Quality is Your Quality Time?

Nuns are so much nicer when their mouths aren't letting out words.
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Today turned out to be a good day. I think if I would have stayed home I would have became super bored and ended up being in a bad mood, but this is not the case. Except for a little frustration in the Esteban department, but that is hardly worth having any emotion toward so I really don't care.
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Esteban wrote me an email that said I shouldn't be so "ingrata" (unpleasant) and that I should write to him sooner. The truth is I was the last one to leave him a message on facebook so that is a lie that I haven't wrote him and that I am being unpleasant...whatever I suppose...he can think what he wants. Things like this allow me to assure myself I made the correct decision.
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In other news of my life...someone did take the invitation of spending quality time and it did work out. I would give the quality of this time 4/5 stars. I went to Mike's and we took his dog on a walk to Subway...ate there...walked back. Sat in his basement and watched tv...spent about an hour fighting over the better blanket...which was a good time. We laughed at ridiculous people on the television...including a nun from Arkansas that shouldn't have an entire 1/2 hr. block to ramble on about ridiculous subjects, stupid people that get 100,000 for either being cute or incredibly stupid, Paris Hilton and her "BFF" search, famous murders, Scrubs, The Simpsons, and Family Guy. It was a good time.
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Now I came home to start some chorse and MAYBE start some thank-you cards...but I'm not sure about that yet...I'm pretty tired.
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God, I hate those Prius commericals...the babies creep me out. They have a new one. Bleh.
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"Not correcting your children is the worst mistake you can make in your life." But, keep drinking that alcohol, smoking those cigarettes, and continue that affair you're having with Mr. Expensive Pants across the street. Just as long as you correct them damn children. The nun said only the quote...but seriously? The WORST mistake? Doubtful. Maybe 1998 when this particular episode was filmed was an easier time, but I doubt it.
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When the tree didn't give Jesus figs he cursed it and it died. How does that man make you feel?
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Tomorrow will be some quality work time...but not the fun kind. The kind where you stay at home and do annoying tasks. Thursday is U of M Orientation!!! I'm excited.
Hasta Later.

SleepLess

Last night before I went to bed I thought about a world without sleep. What if we felt more refreshed after being busy & the more we applied ourselves the more refreshed we felt? Every day at the same time everyone in the world could take an hour nap and this would be enough to keep us going and our bodies healthy. Think how much we could get done...and think how much we would enjoy it if it meant feeling that feeling of a refreshing sleep. We could have 2 jobs, spend more family and friend time and even get that time to ourselves. Maybe I just like that idea because it's so difficult for me to fall asleep and stay asleep.
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Today I slept in after having a difficult time falling asleep and then spent the last hours with my cousin except that's a lie because he came back about 5 minutes ago to get a sweatshirt he had forgotton here...he brought his girlfriend I had never met. She seems really nice.
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The rest of the day included time at Hope's Harvest and work. I took my S.A. test, and although it was harder than I thought, there was really only about 4 questions where I wasn't confident in my answers. I suppose it will be corrected soon and then I can get tips my next time I work.
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It seems I can't think of anything else to say...so I will say that I do not have any fun plans tomorrow so if you believe that we should spend some quality time together then text or call me with your ideas and we will see if they work out.

My Cousin Uses Facebook Only For a Farm Application

I played Super Nintendo classics with my cousin from South Dakota. He has my kind of humor...dry and sarcastic. He was impressed with my video game abilities...I am now watching my mom and him play a different game...kind of lame, but whatever.
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Today I was successful in going to the amount of grad parties I said I would...except it was 5 and not 4...so that's a lie. I'm sick of grad parties. Nice, but I really don't need an excuse to hang out with the people I like...or an excuse to eat way more than necessary.
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Tomorrow I shall be a Ninja at Nosh. I also take my test to become an Server's Assistant...then study to take my food/alcohol test to become a waitress...whooo hoo tips.
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Sometimes I wonder who reads my blog besides my friends and what they think about me. My only goal is for this not to be a borefest.
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I saw some major ipod touching going on at Mike's...mainly because everyone seems to have an ipod touch now and they use them all the time. Oh well... I also met someone that had several different impressions throughout the day...she makes me laugh & even though I think she thinks she's cooler than she might be I still don't think she's that bad. I'll probably never see her again....so that is that.
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I'm tired.
But I won't go to bed.
Just like yesterday and going to bed at 4:30.
Hasta later.

Gracias for Cheering Me Up Without Being Here

Lorda Lorda Lorda I have much to say. This not only included the past 2 days, but just the past 1/2 hour...I just went through a crazy emotional deal that started out almost bursting into tears then wanting to hug every person that came to my grad party one more time.
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The tears part is because I couldn't find my check. I realized that I was really careless because I became distracted. This will not happen again. I found it underneath the seat in the middle. I would have cried hardcore tears if I would have found out that it had blown out my door when I wasn't looking...because it was my first check from Nosh...god I would have cried...but I found it so therefore cried no tears...
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After the anger that came from the carelessness I decided that I would open grad cards to cheer myself up...and god did that seriously cheer me up. Not only at the grad party did I realized that I have amazing family, friends, and those people you feel weird calling your friends because they are 15+ years older than you but really they are your friends. My favorite message written in the card was from my godmother because she is amazingly nice and good with words and has amazing handwriting, then my cards from my friends that I work with from Mexico because they are very sweet as well, and then a card that sang and completely scared the crap out of me because it is dead silent in my house and my mind was wandering. My favorite card just based on the card said: "Stop. Set down the pencil. You're Done. Congratulations." I'm not sure why I liked it so much, but I really did.
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I know you probably don't care about all that because you wouldn't understand, but it really did cheer me up...not only because I got way more money than I was expecting to, but because I have amazing people in my life.
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At my grad party I was glad a few of my friends came...I didn't want everyone there today, but just those 4 were a delightful surprise. I also translated a complete conversation between an amiga and my grandmother. My grandma doesn't speak Spanish at all, but she decided that since this woman could say "How are you?" that she would carry on an entire conversation with her even though that was the basis of this woman's English. I was glad to be successful and realized that majoring in Spanish is a very good idea for me because I really do love it. My amiga's son Steve is amazingly cute too...the 2nd cutest baby I've ever seen in my life and that is a huge compliment coming from me (not because I know a lot of cute babies but because I don't refer to them as cute often).
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Even though my past 2 days may have been more interesting than all this stuff I just rambled on about, I will summarize very quickly because I'm tired and can't think.
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-First, completely forgot what was so interesting about 2 days ago, so I'll just skip that.
-Second, today: woke up to the sound of my mom's friend, found my mom to be in a shockingly good mood for a party day, had a wonderful grad party, attended Ashley, Sierra, and Kevin's party, picked up my paycheck and delivered some cake to my Nosh people, hung out at Kevin's, went to Perkins, freaked out about almost losing my phone, freaked out about almost losing my paycheck, opened grad cards, became happy, wrote this, and after this we will see.
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Tomorrow I plan to attend 4 grad parties & travel with Hannah and JDK.
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Seriously, super happy with everything (except for temporary carelessness)

Party Party Party

My parents are both in a weird state of mind. The kind where my mom turns on Sponge Bob and then they both look through a scrapbook I made in elementary school and refer to me as "a very intelligent and talented child". My mom says "awwwwww" a lot....I guess she's a mom and her only daughter is leaving in a few months...I'm just not an "awwwww" type of person.
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I feel like I'm bragging about everything I've done between the time I came out of my mother and now...I'm not a fan of bragging, but I suppose this is the exception. I can't wait till this thing is over. Then I can finally stop getting asked "Where are you going to college?" and "What do you plan to study?" or at least have those questions come up less often. We have enough food to feed 75 people...we will get about 40 people. My parents are looking forward to meeting Peggy and Susan.
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I get my first paycheck tomorrow. I am super duper excited for that. I also received the information for the food part of the waitress/server test...now I need to study study study. Nathan Frye quizzed me on my alcohol knowledge at Hope's Harvest. I made flashcards...they are the weirdest flashcards I have ever made. They have the words Gin, Vodka, Draft Beer, Imported Beer, Ice Tea, Water, Scotch (etc.) on them and then the brands that Nosh has. I need to learn them all. Nathan was helpful.
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I got my karaokee on last night. That can mean one of two things...or at least when I'm talking to Tom. I participated in neither of those action's last night, but I did watch some people sing. All I have to say about that is good job Nathan Frye & that country should be banned from everywhere except rodeos & the South. Did you know refills at Applebees are free?!?! I didn't...the waitress laughed at my face when I found that out...and so did Tom.
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I burned my thumb at work lighting candles....it hurt. Other than that work was good. After work JDK and I took a walk...it was a nice walk...good conversation was exchanged. Then I went home and decorated.
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The moon was awkward tonight. It had a haze over it and the clouds made it look distorted...I wish I could take an overnight "cruise" to the moon...only without all that lame protective suit stuff. Imagine the view, the stars, and the feeling of floating. That would be awesome.
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Mike helped me figure out really cool things my camera can do. I sense that I will have a bunch of cool pictures to show soon.
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I will be seeing my amigos tomorrow as well as the family I rarely see. My cousin might be staying overnight...he's fun & the reason I'm so good at SuperMario World.
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Whooooo ParTAY!

It's an Indie, Reggae, Alternative Sort of Day

HellOLA.
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I've been downloading A LOT of new music over the past few days and have discovered some new favorite bands and some new favorite songs. I put some of them in my playlist so you can hear...others I just prefer to keep for myself. Looking at my playlist I also realized that I keep it to pretty much one genre. My taste in music includes almost everything though (except country). It really depends on my mood and the weather. Today is definately an Indie, Reggae, and Alternative sort of day.
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Today has not been as productive as I would have liked it to be, but I still have lots of time. I also have fun plans for tonight.
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I'm really looking forward to my grad party being over...the bonfire I'm having should be fun...I look forward to that...but this Saturday is my family classic grad party...it shall be pretty lame...you are welcome to come to my house between the hours of 1-4 on the 6th day of June...I didn't invite any of my friends to this, but I change my mind now and the amigos that read my blog are invited because you are some of my favorites...I think?
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Anyways...I will begin the work of today and prepare for the fun.
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I love Music. One day soon I shall make a list of my favorite bands...

Annoyance is Annoying

Today I talked briefly about my biggest annoyances with a friend. I didn't know that that conversation would be a foreshadowing to my mother doing almost every single one of them.
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If I were to make a list my pet peeves would include:
-Repeating Myself, Not Being Able to Get Out a Complete Sentence
-High Voices, Screaming Girls, Bad Grammar
-People Asking Too Many Questions
-People Hovering In My Space
-People Telling Me I'm in a Bad Mood, Crabby, or Mean
-Cracking Fingers
-People Who Chew While Talking, Chewing with Your Mouth Open
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I guess I have quite a few pet peeves. Though most of them are pretty simple to not have happen. Somehow my parents don't know how to deal with them & they still haven't learned them after over 18 years.
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Today I made a picture collage for my graduation party. I didn't know I was such a cute baby...I had really black fuzzy hair. I wish it would have stayed that color. I also loved posing for the camera.
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Today I spent time with JDK and Hannah. It was nice to see Hannah when we aren't in school or aren't in a large group, because I don't see her a lot. I hope we can hang out more often.
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I also worked today. That always brightens my day. I love being a ninja & I love talking with Ankur.
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I'm kind of in a bad mood because of my parents being annoying so this probably won't be inspirational at all. Tomorrow will be a good day...today was a good day too I suppose...just not now...not now at all.
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Hope you are having a lovely evening & I will habla with you luego.

Mon Amie La Rose

My home has been used for a transition between days...otherwise I have been spending almost all day in Lake City for a week or two now. I really enjoy that and my friends. I find I have no hate list because I only spend time with the people I like...and I find myself enjoying every single one of my friends.
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Yesterday on my way home I hit a bug with my car in the dark of night. I'm almost sure it was a bug, but when it hit, it made a noise as loud as hitting a bird. I hope it was a bug. God, I hope it was a bug.
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In the past few days I have graduated, sat around a bonfire in the rain while holding an umbrella, went to grad parties, had an amazing day at work, enjoyed an amazing dinner at NOSH with my two favorites, ran, read, and downloaded a crap-ton of music.
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Today I really did close to nothing, but yet I accomplished everything I wanted to...I had a few invitations to hang out with people...which I really wish I could attend...but I guess it's good to have a break...I guess. I seem to have liked the idea better in the morning, but I have convinced myself it is a good thing...it is.
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I have a headache now so I'll make this short...hopefully I can come up with something more inspirational another day...
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"Mon Amie La Rose" is a song by Francoise Hardy. It's in French and not something everyone would like, but god, you know those French accents make everything sound good. There's a youtube video if you are curious.

Span of Attention is Lacking Length

I don't have the patience for curls and neither does my hair...they don't fit my personality either, but I always like trying something different so I did. My hair is naturally pretty curly, but nobody ever sees that because it rarely turns out attractive. I'm sure you don't care...so I will move on.
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Yesterday was my idea of a PERFECT day. I slept in, but not too late, Read a beautiful book, Sat in the sun and chatted con one of my amigos. My parents and I are on very good terms...my mom even complimented my hair and gave me $10. Then my dad said I could do whatever today. I probably won't take advantage of this too much because I got about 3-4 hours of sleep last night.
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I'm in love...or at least I was. It was at Spano's grad party and I was on a date. He held my hand and we walked over to see the sheep. The date concluded with a hug because I'm not a slut.
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The after grad party was very fun...a little long for my short attention span, but still fun. Hypnotism never fails to impress. I also like randomly riding on scooters down a hallway with people I like, but don't spend a lot of my time with. There was old videos from when we were all either cute or awkward. One video I was cute...the other I was definately awkward. Oh well...I've learned that everyone has that time. I won a prize...like everyone...I'm glad my name was called a little sooner than some, but wish it was called a little sooner than others...but in the end it doesn't matter. I'm sure there was other fun stuff to chat about, but I had an energy drink and just remember shouting a lot.
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I slept at JDK's house. We semi-fell asleep watching Will & Grace...or at least we both closed our eyes and curled up at opposite ends of the couch-bed. He sounds like some kind of machine when he sleeps...it's not snoring...it's a loud exhale...just so you know.
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Over-all a good day. I've lost interest in this blog. Today I will migrate to Lake City to pasar some tiempo with my amigos.
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Who was I in love with?
Jared.
...but I've moved on...

Everyday is Saturday...I Like It

Who would need instructions on how to work a can of cheese?
Even if you had no clue...you could do basically 2 things: push on the top correctly or try to pry off the top (in which case I'm sure you would accidentally find the right way). And do you think there is a person out there that has cried out in fear: "What do I do with this slow moving string of cheese coming out of the top of this pressurized can that I am pressing against?!?!" I wonder about people sometimes...or maybe I just have a lot of experience with cheese in a can.
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Today I had a good day at home. Those are rare only because I get incredibly bored. For some reason today I just didn't. And looking back, I really did almost nothing. The highlights of my day included finishing a book I have been forever reading while putting some color into my skin via sun and receiving a text that was nice. I've also been watching Scrubs a lot lately. Perhaps my day was good just because the weather was really cheerful.
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The Virginia acquaintance I have sent me a quilt her grandma made me for my graduation present. It's really nice looking and warm. My cat utilized it for her nap today.
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Crab Rangoon, Wonton Soup, Seasame Chicken, Vegetable Lo Mein, Fortune Cookies...doesn't that all sound DELICIOUS? Pretty much anything in a cute little takeout box and chop sticks sounds amazing. I'm not sure why the Chinese created food that I randomly crave even though generally speaking don't find amazing...but they are smart...
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再见...that's goodbye in Chinese...I think?

Joy

Should a child be named after an emotion? Perhaps the child would feel obligated to feel that emotion...or perhaps they would turn out to be as loca as the girl I met today...I enjoy locas though. Joy is a tall slender woman with chin-length, dirty blonde hair with curls. She said I know her or that I should know of her...I was confused about this because I had never heard of her...and I am sure I would remember a woman who carried a fanny purse and wore a USA windjacket. She seemed nice. She does something behind or in a church.
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I love volunteering. Today was an unusual volunteer experience. I saw a lot of familiars and a lot of little girls with frizzy hair and big eyes. I even chatted with Rachel Balow...it's been awhile.
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I awoke to rain. My house was dark and quiet and smelled of summer. I decided to take pictures until my battery died.
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I also found out that good words can get you things. I don't mean this in a negative or selfish way either. I wrote a letter to the U because there was confusion and I wanted to have my orientation the 11th and 12th or I would have conflict with getting up there...they accepted my letter and it made my day today to find out that I will be having orientation with 2 of my lovely amigos.
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Today I texted someone that wasn't a regular. I turned in my PSEO grade. I forgave when I wasn't mad to begin with. I had a delicious smoothie from Hope's Harvest and a delicious Moolate at Dairy Queen. I discussed with a friend and made 2 new CDs for my car. I wish I knew my work schedule so I wouldn't have to keep my plans so tentative. My creative energy yesterday got me 2 paragraphs.
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Positive, Insightful, and Humorous energy to you.
And be glad your name isn't Anger or Rage.
Bye.

Running in the Rain

I was really lazy today. Tomorrow will be a productive day as well as the rest of the summer.
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I watched a really lame movie today. My mom thought it was hilarious, but that's just because she likes Kevin James as well as weird humor. It's a good movie if you are in 4th grade.
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I went for a run in the rain after running 1/2 mile on the treadmill. I felt amazing after that and I got some creative energy.
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1 goal on my list of things to do in my life is to write a novel. I have started that novel today. Hopefully I actally finish this one.
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People are too critical for fun activities. For the scavenger hunt picture thing JDK and I had a lot of fun...then after we put them on facebook people started being annoying...in the beginning JDK and I thought it would be fun to win...just for the sake of winning...now I wish there wasn't a winner at all because then people wouldn't get so loco. Oh well I guess...I really don't care. I'm pretty proud of our work.
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Have a good day tomorrow! I will be saving the world by volunteering at the library. Should be a good time.
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Inspirational Monday

The day she told me I was wrong was the day everything in my life began to change.
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When I was really young...around the age of 4...I was popular by the "city kids" of Zumbro Falls standards. It was when I was completely 100% myself. I would play in the mud, catch bugs, and go to the playground every day. Other kids would always knock on my door and ask me to play with them or ask me to be the brave one to pick up a bug for some strange reason.
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When I got to elementary school I realized that I had to "fit in" and by 4th grade I had changed myself...I tried to be like everyone else around me and tried to like the things that they liked. It wasn't exactly who I was, but I didn't realize I was changing so much. I was always around people that would look at you funny if you did anything different.
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By 7th grade I felt really lost. I had lots of friends and I had a good life, but I actually found myself not studying because I didn't think it was "cool". I had finally saw myself as a person trying to fit in rather than an actual person.
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One day I said something that she didn't agree with. We went on to discuss ideas and I realized that in order to be more confident...I need an actual personality...I can't depend on others for what I want out of life. From then on I stuck with friends that all taught me different things as well as taught me to be more outgoing and different. I felt more comfortable about everything and could even say how I felt without worrying about whether or not people would agree, because the truth is...it doesn't matter.
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The librarians had given all the seniors a question "What is the most important thing you have learned in high school?" I never did get around to answer it, but if it were to be something it would be to stop worrying about what others think because being different is a lot more fun.
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Today I slept in, watched Scrubs, hung out with JDK, uploaded pictures, went to work, watched JDK & Kevin play tennis, dealt with more pictures, and came home to a short conversation with my mom.
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Things with my family are a little rough right now, but I feel like everything is going to work out. I enjoy spending time with my friends and work makes me feel productive. I don't think I would be where I am now if she hadn't told me I was wrong.
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Happy Memory Day!

Don't Just Stand There

I have been hearing "don't just stand there". It is a motto of my boss that looks like Resse Witherspoon as well as the theme for today's sermon in church.
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Friday was our retreat. I was a photographer for the yearbook and got lots of pictures of people and felt like a creeper. It was also an opportunity to claim that I have my last opportunity to hang out with everyone in our grade besides the fact I really only hung out with the people I care about. Later, I hung out with my posse and went to work...I was the hostess...I'm not a fan of that aspect of my job...I hope I don't do it very much.
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Saturday I attended a meeting for volunteering at the library this summer. It might get a little crazy, but it will look good and hopefully be fun. After I went to that I went on a scavenger hunt with JDK. We found everything on the list. It was super fun and we bonded. Then we met up with Mike and went to Ross's grad party. Then I went to work again and had the busiest day yet. It was awesome...I love busy nights. I have decided that Brady and I should work together all the time...we randomly chit chat when we have down time...which is only in the beginning.
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Today I attended a church party for the graduates. It was lame. I listened to a bunch of old ladies gossip about their Egg Bake and different people they know. Even my dad thought it was lame. Then we went to church. I find it hard to sit in church and not question everything now...and the more I listen...the more I find a lot of things ridiculous. When I got home I took a long overdue 4 1/2 hour nap. Then I did some overdue cleaning, made a delicious dinner, read, and chatted with JDK and Esteban. I find Esteban annoying me a lot and I'm not sure why I still find it necessary not to completely block him out of my life. I wish we could be friends, but the truth is...I don't think we would have been friends anyways if we didn't date.
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I love having a busy life. Alex Pyle and Miranda Nibbe recreated a titanic scene for JDK and I...Alex swam in a puddle.
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Hasta Banana!

Last Day of High School! Let the Future Begin!

Today is Thursday and that it was. I'm glad to be done with that school. There are some people I will miss, some things I wish I could still be a part of, but other people make me angry and I just don't want to see them anymore.
That's Adam Yotter and Jake Eichhorn. They are 2 of the best things to happen to peer tutoring ever. Adam made me a card saying that I'm awesome...it was nice.
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1st-6th hour really weren't that bad. It was the moment my camera died that things started going down hill. Or actually the moment I exchanged words with Patrick Ryan and Whitney Gerkin. I strongly dislike them.

That's Bri laughing. She's a loca.
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Tomorrow shall be fun. I will see these lovelys again. I have many more pictures to share. So I promise a picture for each blog for a long time.
Have a good Thursday! (If that's possible)
Hasta Ya Basta!
P.S. Bri's video took a LONG time to upload if that means anything to you.

Iced Coffee Leads to Energy

I close my eyes and shelter them
From the fear.
I slowly take my right foot
And hold it over the edge,
Dangling my toes.
I walk off the edge,
Falling into the pool of risks.
I hold my breath
And hope
That there are no sharp rocks at the bottom
Or cold water
Numbing my toes
Waiting to punish my mistake.
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My cat and I have a lot in common. Or just 2 things. One being that we both claim the same mother-like thing...only I was born out of her...my cat was just driven in a car for an hour by her. So I win there. Another thing is that we are both angel-like in the day...and ninjas by night. Or at least mine is set on a schedule...her ninja-like qualities can appear at any given moment.
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I took a rather big risk applying at Nosh...just as I have taken many risks throughout the past 2 years. I feel like they have made me a more outgoing person and have led me toward the person I see myself being. I'm not quite there, but I am sure that this job will get me there. It was a risk worth taking and one of the greatest experiences I have ever had.
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Ankur showed me the bar today. It was really amazing...mainly him...because he's really nice and funny. He made me ice coffee which was the most amazing coffee thing ever. I also love Lynn and Coreen...they train me in. The chef gave Jess and I a sample of the Gnocci which was amazing...I don't even like dumplings, but this scratched that idea completely...they could make a shoe taste good if they wanted. I love my job...and it won't be the last time you hear that.
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School is over tomorrow. Sooooooo excited as you know. Today was rather lame, but whatever...quick run through: Studied...Lake City Tour...Took a Latin test that bitch-slapped me in the face...Peer Tutored (Adam and Jake make me laugh)...Finished Statistics project and took a walk to Jad's mom's store and she fed us brownies...chatted with Tom and shared a good laugh. Hung out with JDK at Hope's Harvest...went to work...end.
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I smell Lilacs in my house. It's lovely. My cat rests at the top of the recliner next to my mom's head. They are practically one being.
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Goddess by day. Ninja by night. I took the jump off the edge into the pool of risks and I was lucky to find warm refreshing waters, free of sharp rocks.
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Have a lovely evening and morning.
Hasta Banana!

Sleeping Walking Among the Spiders

I sleepwalk in the world of the awake.
My care slips away and I lose my balance.
Clawing at the ground.
Pulling at the grass and hoping
That it will pull me to safety,
And everything just might be okay.
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I encountered that spider as I was studying outside today. It was gross. Really gross. Spiders are definately my worst fear. Especially when they aren't on the ground. I'm always scared they are going to jump on me. Bleh.
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There's also a cool looking picture of my cat. She's the devil in cat form. I also have a scary picture of her, but I'll save that for another day. I thought I would show the nicer side of her because it does exist sometimes. Whatever.
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I have a Latin test tomorrow. I really want to do well. Like really really. I got a B+ for a grade first semester. I hope to do better on this final than my semester final because that was terrible. Ego scripsi litteras mihi means I wrote a letter to myself. I'm not sure when I will ever use that because...well...I don't do that. But oh well.
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2 days. 2 days until school is over. gahhh I have a massive list of things to do. Mr. Brott and Mr. Kohutko are the only locos that are making us do anything. Stupid boys. Ms. Kopp doesn't like boys...or at least the ones in our advisory.
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Part of my posse will be gone tomorrow. That makes me triste, but at least I have the other 33.3%. I like my friends. I look forward to Friday and Saturday when I get to spend some time with them that isn't school.
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I will be a ninja tomorrow night.
WaaaaCHA *slap slap*

I Wish I Lived in a Tuscan Inspired House

I imagine myself living in a house like that someday. It's so beautiful. I also want to have a fountain inside my house in a meditation room because it is definately my favorite sound.
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Today I went to Mayo to explore careers I know I won't pursue. It was nice to escape the school though and I did make new friends. I'm not sure why I just decided this year to make more friends...especially with only 3 days left. Anyways I talked to Vinny today, and while I had always just seen him from a distance and thought of him as talented but annoying...he seems to be nice when he doesn't have his sidekick...perhaps he's nice with him too...but he's much calmer without him.
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I was really tired and Megan and I slept on the way back. It was nice to take a nap...I haven't done that in a long time.
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I'm glad the weather is warming up. Megan scares easily when you poke her during a nap. Everytime I do my little skip hop run thing it makes Tom's day. I got a free pen...not as fancy as some people's but at least mine works. I had a conversation with Mr. Olson, but we were talking about 2 different days...I don't know how what I said made sense to him, but he seemed to understand even though I was talking about today rather than yesterday. Whatever..I have my NHS hours. I almost witnessed a car hitting head on with a semi this morning...people are ridiculously stupid and are always in a hurry.
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I'm so frickin' excited to be done with school. Lorda Lorda Lorda 3 dias mas!
Tomorrow will be a good and productive day.
Remind me to pay Megan.
Good day. Good night.
Good everything.
Ciao!

A Blog For Two

This weekend has been crazy busy. My house was used as a bed and that was all. It was an absolutely amazing weekend, but I wish I had more sleep and a day to rest my legs.
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-Yesterday I volunteered at Hope's Harvest. It was really fun...I like the coffee shop atmosphere and feeling like I helped.
-I also hung out with JDK. We went to Rabbit's so I could see where Nosh gets their bread.
-Then we met up with Mike and went out for Chinese. It was a grand time with good food and I just remembered I left my Chinese in Mike's refrigerator, which I knew would happen when he offered to let me keep it there.
-After that I went to work and got a workout. I love my job so much. I have something to do constantly so it goes by amazingly fast. The only problem is that when it's all over I feel stressed with minor tasks. I saw some more amazing food. If you're going for amazing look try the Marlin...it's beautiful.
-After work I hung out with JDK and Mike some more...we played regular Bananas and Dirty Bananas...it was hilarous.
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Today I went to the AIDS walk in the cities. I rode the transit. Saw crazily energetic and enthusiastic people. Walked 6.2+ miles. Got lots of free snacks. It was really fun. My legs kill now though.
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I've realized things about myself from my relations with other people:
-My hate list is only temporary...it can be proven wrong at any given moment.
-When I'm stressed I don't enjoy being around people I normally do or my parents, but that's a given.
-I don't like people to say I'm in a bad mood/crabby/mean...it just doesn't help anything.
-I say things that people take personally...even though I don't mean any of it.
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I always thought that I was a patient person, but I think I need to work on developing more of it.
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I love my friends. I like what my life is turning into. I'm frustrated with some things, stressed about others. It's becoming easier to focus on each individual day. 4 more days of high school...and Holy Lorda I'm glad it's almost done.
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Sorry this was so long.
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I could have said "Zitch Dog" a million times today at the park. If you were there I would be winning by a lot more. But you weren't.
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Her doinker boinked his yoinker.

Insightful Not Inspitefull

Somedays I wonder who I would be if I had made the other choice in some major choices in my life, or if others had done things differently.
-What if he had not moved away?
-What if I had stayed friends with them?
-What if she had not corrected my opinion?
-What if I had chosen the other him to be with 1 1/2 years?
-What if I had not left the house that day?
-What if I had just asked what time to come in on Christmas Day?
-What if I had met any single person at a different time in my life?

I believe that all of those questions and many more would have dramatically changed my life if they had gone the opposite way they did. I would rather have looked back on them and wonder if I would have ended up a failure than have taken those decisions and wonder if I would have been a success because I am truly happy with how everything worked out even if I might not have thought that at the moment.
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I had one of the most insightful conversations I have had with a friend in quite a long time...it lasted for about 4-5 hours. I would share some of the things I learned, but I really keep that sort of stuff to myself and disclose that stuff only when in the right setting.
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I heard the perfect wording for what I want out of life in terms of being known: I want to be respected and have my name out there but not be noticed when walking down the street.
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Enough insight for one night. The "not in spite full" aspect of my blog would be rather than complaining about the people in my life and the lameness of my school day...I would rather list the people that made each of them good:

Spanish: The people that delivered our winnings, Meghan Streed
Biology: Sam J
Study Hall: Chris, Mike
Media Design: Mike
Peer Tutoring: Jake, Adam, Cody
AP Lit: JDK
Stats: Tom
In Between Classes/Lunch: Amanda Foster, Pat E (even though I don't respect the way he eats)
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I'm home alone. I have been a little freaked out tonight even though I'm not usually like that. Whatever. I will live. I am afterall a goddess by day and a ninja by night.
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"Quick! Make this conversation more exciting in the next 3 minutes."
"Boobs."
"Wow. Done."

Mamma Mia Ninja Ninja

I am a ninja.
I serve coffee and you don't notice me,
But I'm polite and have amazing etiquette.
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Today I had a horrible school day. Practically the only person to make me smile much was Chris. It was unexpected, but delightful...we bonded today.
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I had a stressful after school. I had to buy clothes for work that met their satisfaction and be back in Lake City by 5 so I can be back and beautiful at 5:30.
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I LOVE my job. I love the people there. Love the food. Love the everything. It seriously was perfect. I missed supper, but didn't care at all because it was so amazing. I was also standing so long that my legs quivered at the choir concert. But I don't care because I LOVE MY JOB.
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I also love my friends. They have amazing singing abilities. Specifically Mike and Jared were my two favorite performers. Everyone did a good job, but they were lovely. Bri and Jared also did beautiful Chorography. Bessie looked gorgeous. I wish I was Steph so I could play bass. I wish I was Abbey so I could play piano. (Both Guitar and Piano are on my list of things to do/learn in my life). Nathan Frye looked exotic. Kevin was nice. Jess was nice. Everyone was just nice. Mike also won an awesome award...yay...I was so happy.
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Enough of that. I have some food studying to do. Did you know bread is crazy to memorize...I forget the Toasted Red Pepper Feshhahahhlalalala (it starts with an "F" but I don't remember what it was)...there were also 3 others...but only I would care about that. I got to sample food. But anyways I already talked about my job and I have people to chat with and things to study and muchos cosas to do.
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Adios!

Mike and the Like

Let me start off by telling you a story about a promise I didn't keep and a dream I had last night. Mike asked to be mentioned in yesterday's blog, but I forgot. I later had a dream last that he yelled at me for it. So this blog is dedicated to one of my best friends: Mike Trost.

Mike is a delight.
Girls faint when he's in sight.
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Today was an eventful day. It was orientation at my job. I love the people that work there. They are so professional yet funny. My favorite moment was when my boss referred to each of us as ninjas...and gave us a ninja speech. We are quick, efficient, and aren't noticed when we fill coffee and change silverware. We also dress in all black. We are ninjas who are ninja-like. We also got an instruction manual that is quite intimidating, but it's much more organized than anything that the nursing home ever gave me. I like it. I also have to work on memorizing all food from their menu, and food terms from "The Food Lover's Companion" as well as have a lot of knowledge about wine. It will turn into a lot of daily studying. I have a test on all this stuff before I can actually waitress. Crazy, but nice.
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Tonight was also scholarship night. I'll be brief because I am quite sick of hearing about it. I got 3 scholarships: Zumbro Falls Sportsmen's Club, Zumbro Falls Lions, and Eastern Star. I was really pleasantly surprised. I was also happy that there were a variety of people getting them because I like when lots of people get stuff. Spread the wealth.
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I took 3 Spanish tests. Kelsey Fick is a crow. Bri is awkward. Tom is good at Tetris. My mom is weird.
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In conclusion: Mike is amazing. Mike is talented and nearly God-like. I hope this mentioning of him will stop the nightmares of him yelling at me.
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Off to bed. Sweet dreams to you.

Moovie Day

Hellola,
Today was a movie day. In Biology it was 90 minutes of Gattaca...which is an interesting movie, but a long time to just sit there. Then in AP Lit it was 90 minutes of Young Frankenstein...also a good movie, but the same 90 minute thing.
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I do not enjoy going to sleep at night. I would rather just take a 2 hour nap at different times during the course of a day whenever I felt I needed rest.
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My mom added "Reading Lord of the Flies" to her list of things to do in her life. My list is a lot different than hers. I'm not sure how we ended up so different, but I want to experience everything around the world...not just things that I can do in my house like hers. I guess she's happy like that...and I'm happy the way I have things planned.
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I start my first day of work tomorrow. I am so frickin' excited...I wish I could work there every day (or at least that's what I think now)...I just like the idea of it so much. I hope it goes as well as I think it will...usually when I'm this excited for something it does go that way..so yay. Then it's awards night...and I'll have to listen to my parents gossip when I get home. Bleh. I wish everyone got at least one scholarship...that would make me happy.
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My mom forwarded me an email that somebody from MY life had sent her...she thought it was just as odd as I did. I called somebody today and they were mildly confused when they heard my voice at the other end, but it worked out. I have about 7 days of high school left...that's so exciting. I also have an NHS meeting tomorrow as well as having A LOT of crap to get done this week.
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Wish me luck as I wish you luck.
Hasta Banana

Oh How I Wish It Were Summer!

I sat down in my chair to study.
Before I knew it my head was on the book
And I was getting beat over the head.
I awoke with a jerk and my heart was racing.
Then I fell back asleep
Realizing it was a dream.
I awoke again and feel like I have slept for 10 years
And continue to feel like I got beat over the head.
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I have one more important test...and that is Latin. I need to study for the next week...I need to study a lot. I need to care, but my brain is shutting down.
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I can't wait till awards night is over. I'm so sick of hearing about scholarships. It's just an excuse for people to think they are better than other people. Somebody asked me if I got one today...only they asked it in a way that made me feel like I didn't deserve one. Screw them...I got one and I prefer not to tell it to the world.
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The AP Bio test was a bit ridiculous...the multiple choice was the easy part...I'm fairly confident I passed that part, but seriously the free-response questions completely bitch-slapped me in the face. It doesn't bother me though...I went into it thinking I wouldn't pass...so if I do pass it will just be a pleasant surprise.
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Peer Tutoring was really fun. Kevin, Bri, Adam Yotter, and I just joked around and made jokes. I worked on my Spanish 4 while they worked on their stuff...Spanish 4 is ridiculous. In AP Lit. I listened to a bunch of people freak out over what movie to watch for our film study...thank god it ended in Young Frankenstein because nobody was heartbroken. In Statistics I signed up for the AIDS walk, studied Spanish a little, read my book, and then signed up for Award's Night in the office.
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When I was driving home I watched the clouds and saw they looked like a variety of things. My favorite was one that looked like a snail. I should probably stop daydreaming and focus, but my mind is ready for the year to end.
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I made a friend last night. It was a good time. I'm glad.
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The Biggest Loser Finale is on tomorrow night. I'm excited to see Tara win and Ron to leave.
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End

Nothing of Interest

Metabolism of which of
the following molecules results
in the greatest net usable energy
per gram?
A. A triglyceride
B. A tripeptide
C. An alpha-linked disaccharide
D. A beta-linked disaccharide
E. An anabolic steroid

I didn't know either...
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Tomorrow is our AP Biology test...while I feel like I know a lot about Biology and feel like I know enough to deserve the college credit...questions like that keep showing up randomly and I feel like it won't go how I want it to. The first practice test went well though...so perhaps it will be like that? I hope.
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I studied for about 5 hours so far today...don't expect this blog to be at all interesting, insightful, or funny...my brain hurts.
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I texted. I watched Will & Grace while studying. I remembered Twister. My mom liked her present. I facebook chatted for someone even though I never do that. I wish I lived in Lake City so I could hang out with people more often.
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Stop! 'Cause I really love you.
Esca-LATER.
Mwah

Tengo Buenas Noticias!

I noticed two birds in a tree
Just looking at each other,
And looking at the sunset.
In the moment I wanted that.
But the truth is
I'm dead on the inside.
I like the idea of love,
but it's so much work.
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I took that picture.
As well as the new one for my blog title...
as well as some more.
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Today was amazing.
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I got a call.
It was Tiffany from Nosh.
I have a job.
It is Wednesday 4-5:30.
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I probably have more to say,
but I'll leave you in suspense.
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Zitch Dog!....
but not really...
I would text you if it was.
You know who you are.

I Love You To Crockpot

I love you to crock pot.
That is a lot.
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Hours 1-4 were bad hours....luckily hours 5-7 were just lovely so it was a good day. My after school plans were also a success.
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Pretty sure Cody Vonier, Jake Eichhorn, and Adam Yotter were the ones to make my day better...they were strangely creepy, but made me laugh. Right Hand Puse. Left Hand Pusimos.
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I went to Hopes Harvest after dropping Mike off for work. Susan Draves gave me free Mocha Coffee Stuff...it was good. We chatted and I studied Biology.
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I went to Subway...enough said. Pretty sure the guy that made my sandwich thinks I'm funny....or weird....but whatever.
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I have 2 super awesome friends....and some friends that I like, but don't talk to quite as much and don't have nearly as many inside jokes...and I have some friends that annoy me much, but I still kind of like them. I don't mind this situation...except for the constant annoyance. Ooo and I have also been making friends with the lesser knowns...thank god for that....or not?
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I saw a movie that made me laugh. Enough said. I walked in the rain, in the dark...with friends...how refreshing is that?
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I know you don't give a shit, but I give a shit! I give A LOT of shit!
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Twister.
Buenos Nachos.

I Said I Love You Today...I'll Say I Love You Again

The clouds looked like popcorn as I was driving home.
The sky looked as blue as the ocean and it hurt my eyes as the sun gleamed off of the letter N hanging from my mirror.
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Today was a nice Thursday....as compared to those nasty Thursdays where everything goes wrong....I almost hit a bird on my way into school...I figured that would be what goes wrong...but I missed it....which makes that story a lot less interesting.
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I took an AP Lit. test...there was a couple of drama queens, but that's normal. I thought it was fairly easy...then again I like English and writing so it's rare to find me complaining about such things. The 4 hours went fast...and I had no headache. I'm not sure if the AP Bio test Monday will be as easy for me...but I will continue to study lots and hopefully things will work to my advantage.
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Mr. Heise called today and talked to each individual in our AP class....it actually kind of made my day...it was really nice and thoughtful. I wish he was coming back, but I guess it's better for his health....he's the only teacher I know for sure I will try to keep in contact with after I graduate...the rest I'm not sure.
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I went Mother's Day shopping with Mike in the antique store...we came across a lot of random crap, a bunch of creepy dolls, and lots of interesting things that we liked to look at, but would never buy. I spent some money on my mother and I think she will be pleased. Mike bought a doll just so you all know...but in his defense it was more attractive than the others, a "brand" that his mother likes, as well as the fact it was for his mother and not him.
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Statistics was the only class I had today...we were productive. Otherwise it twas test, delivered lunch in a brown bag which JDK told Pyle was Crack and Prostitutes, listened to the Calculus class talk about their future plans, and an hour of AP Lit. nothingness...which was nice.
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I have plans for tomorrow. I get the house to myself this weekend...too bad I will spend it studying. My illness has subsided and I have not received a phone call. I can half smell and desperately want to hear the ring of the phone.
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Speaking of phone...my mother wanted me to do some laundry...I had better start doing that.

I Love Raindrops

I love the feeling of being outside just after a rainstorm.

When the sun has awakened and peers out from behind the clouds.

And the plants are freshened by a glaze of cool rain.

When everything seems to take on a deeper shade of green.

I love the feeling of laying in fresh white sheets.

With the scent of a vanilla candle luming in the air.

A cup of steaming tea sitting on a table next to a soft bed.

The windows speckled with raindrops that have collected.

I love the feeling of staring into the sky on a clear dark night.

When the stars are bright and glowing above your head.

Laying in the grass without a fear in the world.

Expecting to be able to fly away if you close your eyes.

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I wish my daydreams could become reality. I wish that I could let everything in the world go and not have any fear...no worries...or pain. I wish that whenever I dream this daydream of raindrops I didn't quickly relate it to the fact that my eyes are dripping with tears from my tickled nose and stuffy sickness. I wish I could escape the loud people, the people that complain of their problems that really aren't significant at all, and the people that are so set on their ways they have no ability to open their mind and let new ideas in. I wish I could rest my eyes and stop my thoughts. I wish there were more hours in a day to accomplish everything I want.

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My days have become relaxing, but reality is they all have a calming about them before the storm truly hits. One of those storms takes place tomorrow at 8am. I feel well prepared, self-confident, and positive...but I can't help but think 10 more minutes of literary terms, 5 more minutes looking at Spark Notes, or just a minute to gather my thoughts and grasp some creative energy.

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I wish I wish I wish...eventually...I will.

A Slight Barrier in the Wellness of my Health

I should be peer tutoring some Spanish-speaking souls right now, but instead am sitting at home recovering from a killer cold, watching Will & Grace, and studying a little.
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I slept from 4pm yesterday until 9:30am today with exception of hour long wake-up periods that only happend about twice.
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I really have nothing to say besides the fact that all my classes today are independent study anyways so I am missing nothing, and the fact that I am bored and actually look forward to coming back to school tomorrow to see my favorite people.
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AP Lit test is Thursday. 3 or better here I come.

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"Diane doesn't have kabobs...she's a girl...she has a kagina."

Fa Lalalala Pra Prom Prom Prom

Lots of things happend in my life this weekend.

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-Had a job interview...it went well...and I love the guy who interviewed me.

-Went to Nathan's house to change for prom and then had a photoshoot with him and his mom.

-Went to Bri's and had amazing food. Her mom is an amazing cook as well as everyone who helped.

-Went to Patton Park for more pictures...too many pictures...but at least we captured every moment.

-Went to Dairy Queen and chatted.

-Went random driving with Nathan, JDK, and Holly. I like Holly...she's my cousin, but we really have hardly talked. Nathan was also very entertaining.

-Went to a cemetary to form a game plan.

-Went to BK for a bathroom break.

-Grand March

-Dance

-Mike's

-Sleepover

-Visited Hope's Harvest

-Got bad news from a text message...I hope everything works out okay...I trust that it will, but there's always that chance.

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I realized that yesterday my patience level was amazing. I talked to people that I usually don't like or have never talked to and they weren't so bad (with exception of 3 people). I made some friends, improved some friendships, and embraced some friendships. We may have a new member to our posse. I also realized I had a lot better Prom than last year because I wasn't focusing just on one person, I had some space, and my date was very entertaining.

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I'm going to start caring a lot more. I did decide that Friday, but tomorrow I'm going to embrace that. I'm very sad my favorite teacher will not be teaching the rest of this year...I'm going to get an awesome score on my AP test for him...because he's an awesome teacher and has taught us so much.

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I have a very sore throat....very very sore....my mom said I looked sick....I hate admitting that I'm sick...so I won't...not yet.

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Amazing Prom. Amazing after prom. Glad to be dressed casually. My senior year has had some of the greatest moments of my life...and some of the worst....it has been the most memorable year so far. I look forward to finishing it off, having an amazing summer, and then escaping to Minneapolis.

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End.

Today was a Day

Today was a day.
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School felt weird. It was nice to have a day of nothing, but really....really I just want it to be done. Adam Yotter probably did the best job at making me laugh today in school.
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Car crash thing...better than I originally thought....less better than it had later been talked up to be. Some things could have been edited, but I understand the work. That "host-like" lady made me laugh. Who needs to raise there hand to show they are wearing a red shirt? Just look at the shirt.
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"Today....everyone in Lake City died........emotionally."
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It also started off with her listing off the sponsers....she read them very dramatically...it very well could have been the whole show and it would have convinced me to make good decisions.
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I went to Roch with JDK, Kevin, and Jared. I like the people that I like. I also got some pictures.
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Went to Mike's house...I enjoy him...and the people that I like.
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Tomorrow is prom. Tomorrow is the new date of my job interview (for sure). Tomorrow will be stressful. Tomorrow will be fun. I hate repitition so I'm not sure why I said tomorrow so much. Anyways I look forward to things to come...not as much as some others...but enough to smile...especially if I am employed tomorrow.
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Make smart choices.
Ciao